Sorry

So I just opened my computer and realized I never posted yesterdays blog so I dint even bother to post it, sorry I will fulfill my need to post today probably late, sorry yet again


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Misjudgments On The Dinner Table

Today was spent at home, i woke up late and stayed home all day. I never saw the sun and if no one requests me to catch a glimpse of the moon it will stay unseen by my eyes. Yep. Thats all.

Well i'm not going to leave a completely useful post empty. So lately i haven't been texting people. I have never been a big "text-er" but its pretty weird to find myself not communicating with anyone outside my house for a whole day. I usually have people texting me just to talk and such but today that was not the case. I had a couple text waiting for me to reply on my phone but i never replied. I'm not sure why. I woke up to a text that i quickly thought of a response for but i just didn't reply i'm not sure why...It was something about yesterday's mushroom incident, i knew if i replied this was going to be a fun conversation but i don't know why i didn't. Haha i received another text from someone i hadn't talked in ages and i also received a couple more different ones but i didn't reply what so ever...

Even though the day was spent inside and pretty lonesome I enjoyed it. The day went by super fast. Probably because i woke up at 2pm. I also spent the day listening to TTNG, I seriously need a new band. I heard this awesome band yesterday! but i didn't find anywhere to download their music so i haven't gotten into them what so ever.

I really want to talk about something, like i feel like this post is pretty pointless (which is the point of the blog) but i still want to talk about something. I just don't know what. I guess im talking about not being able to talk about anything, or at least come up with a new topic. SO i guess that's todays topic which i did not really discuss....so im out i guess

The title is completely random, and the image is a picture i took about 30 seconds ago of my desk. Here you can see a neon green towel, a knife (i have a lot all over my room), two skin tones socks, unopened water, sharpie, candy and my computer screen open to itunes....yay

night

Yet Again

So yet again I post this late! Man! I almost forgot too....

Today was chill, I went to Church, And hung out with my family. We went to go eat at a Cuban restaurant and it was really good and all but something really nasty happened. So I ordered chicken and it was like on a sauce and it was good, I ate about half of it and I was really enjoying it. Then I look down at the plate and I see something, when I first saw it I was like "no It can't be" I took a closer look and there they were!!! Mushrooms!!!! They were swimming with my chicken!!! Oh my god! I almost threw up! I set it aside and without freaking out I just ate my rice and beans. This was so disgusting I could not even look at it. Oh by the way I HATE mushrooms! I wanted to call my friend crystal and just scream at her because it was probably her doing somehow. She's that one friend that always contradicts the one thing you hate the most and she always eats mushrooms just to bother me. That is probably why it was her doing.

Afterwards we went to some mall and shopped and crap. I didn't buy anything. Once it closed we raided krispy kream donuts, haha and we bought some. We headed home and I read some of Manny's book then talked on the phone with a friend. Now I'm here doing this haha

I have no alternate topic today I'm too lazy to talk about anything else. I'm going to watch some House :)

The picture is a random one I took last time I was in Santa Monica...enjoi

I'm out

Night

I'll do that for a buck

So sorry my post have been late it's just I've been up till real late lately so I haven't been able to post in time, so forgive me

Yesterday was very interesting haha. I woke up to listen to music, and clean my room. Warped Tour's aftermath was devastating and my room took a pretty nasty blow. So after my crap was all organized, i did some other things and finally ate breakfast at like 1. My friend Carlos came over, we hung out for a while and had some laughs. We then decided to go to our town's Birthday Party Bash that they were having in a sports park near by. We walked there and I was supposed to get there and take a city bus that drop me off by a Jack in the Box so I could meet up my friend Andrew for his bachelor party. Well that never happened because I missed the bus and I was now ride-less. We then decided to eat a pizza and buy some drinks from the dollar tree. We ate, and we crossed the street to go to the park. There we saw a lot of familiar faces. We were constantly stoping to say hi to people. One of the friends I spotted out was my friend Tania with her bro and a girl named Lauren which I had just met. We talked and her friend Lauren actually offered me a ride to Jack in the Box. YAY! Haha, we hung out there for a while and then drove to the dollar tree. On the way there (by the way it's just across the street) Lauren sped up in a yellow light and we almost hit some fool crossing the street. It was funny but then I realized who was driving me and this person is not safe with only one month of experience haha. We then go candy and headed to jack. In one of the lights she had to turn on she had to stop in the middle Of the road because of people crossing and she flipped out!!! She started screaming at the people crossing and I was pretty scared by this time. When we got to the parking lot of jack I thought I was safe but she speeds up through it and then notices a speed bump and slams the breaks flinging everyone in the car....when I got off the car, I was thankful I was alive

I then kicked it in Jack for like 2 hours waiting for Andrew to get off work which I didn't mind. We then got in the car and headed to his goodbye party that had already ended. We hung out there the couple opened their presents and they got the deep frier they wanted haha. Afterwards we went to Ana's house and chilled there, but not for long, we then headed back to andrew's house and slept over after we talked and listened to music. This was another night with nearly any sleep haha.

And that's about it, I'm now home waiting to leave and I'll be posting today's blog in time hopefully :)

I'm thankful that I have random friends haha thanks Tania

Talk to you guys later

Warped Tour!!!

I don't know how to begin

Ok, so Warped Tour is a really big music festival throughout all US that brings a lot of bands together. This even is like any other band tour it's just it has no Headliner Band and its usually in really big open places with about 7 stages.

I decided to go...At first i wasn't that exited to go, i have grown apart from a lot of the bands that performed. I hardly ever listen to any hardcore music and i don't keep up with those genres of music as much as i used to. None the less, i'm glad i went...

The day started by picking everyone up and driving all the way to Carson (about 1 1/2 hours away). In our posse, it was Sixta,

Crystal, Teresa, and I. When we got to Carson we were starving so we stopped at a Jack in the Box and ate breakfast. After that we spent a good 20 minutes looking for a parking spot outside of the stadium because a parking in there was a whooping $20....So we just parked in a

neighborhood and walked to the event haha. There we were shocked by what seemed to be the crazy long lines to enter, we were not going to wait all that so with our amazing wits we just cut the line and got split into lines of males and females. I managed to get in first so instead of waiting for the girls i just went straight to the huge inflatable set list they had, it said what bands where playing at what times and at what stages. We met up and got a program, we then stayed where we were and watched Motion City Soundtrack. This band was really chill, i know a couple of their songs and the energy in stage got really crazy especially after they played a couple of their old songs. Shortly after we walked around collecting posters, stickers and such. We all got a free tattoo at the Active, and wondered around the other tents checking out where everything was at. While doing that we listened to The Dillinger Escape Plan, even though we didn't stay there for long these guys we pretty crazy i gotta admit. I've always enjoyed their music but their presence in stage was just whack...pretty crazy.

We continued to walk around and ended up stopping at the Closure in Moscow tent (one of my fav. bands of all time) and meeting Manny, (the rhythm guitarist and second vocalist, pic to the right) this guy was super kool. We talked with him got pictures and posters with autographs. We kicked it with him for a while and talked about random

things. Berrett the guitarist of the band also stopped by and we got his autograph and picture. Manny was really kool, he was actually enjoying the fact that we were there unlike other artist that say hi, take a picture and say "next", treating fans like a job or duty...We then headed off to see In Fear and Faith (pic under) a band that i'm a good fan of...This band is pretty hardcore, mixing screaming with high pitched clean vocals and dropping rhythms and leads in perfect places to make those moments in the song where ypu just go "Yeeeeeeaaaaa" haha. This band has talent, but it was not there yesterday. Well i take that back the whole band played a good show, everyone enjoyed it and for being the first time being in stage for a really long time and first time playing certain songs live...i give them props, it was just the clean vocals that killed it for me. He was singing to high compared to the voice i was used to, i understand everything is different live but i felt like this guy didn't remember how his own songs went. He was straining his voice and when it came back down it actually sounded better, but he just ignored that and kept singing high. Excluding that the show was really fun especially the pit, jumping around and singing to those catchy lyrics haha.

After that we watched Pierce The Veil and i must admit, I've seen them twice and both times they have not disappointed me...Yesterday they got the crowd crazy in seconds, (probably 'cause of their good looks lol) and played an amazing show. It was really entertaining especially when they gave a hip-hop track a hardcore feel and lifted up their guitars over their heads and each one had a word on it and it ultimately said "get fucking low" hahaha they brought the guitars back down and thats exactly what the crowd did, they got low haha. After that we watched You Me At Six then headed over and watched Enter Shikari....Those guys were crazy. They dropped them crazy Synth beats and climbed on practically everything, one of them even balanced a guitar on his mouth. These guys were pretty kool. Once they were done me and Teresa rushed in the crowd to get close to the Stage. We were in there for Alesana (pic bottom right) one of my childhood bands and the staircase that led me to liking a lot of these crazier bands. This show got a little rowdy, but it was fun. They played old and new songs, and satisfied everyone. In the midst of that mess Crystal showed up behind us and we continued to go crazy. When the last song came (Apology) it was planned that me and Teresa were going to crowd surf out of there but once the song started i lost her and i just asked so big guy next to me to push up and there i was...On top of everyone, my ass on their faces flipping and singing. I got caught by the security and i exited the stage with a smile on my face haha. We then reunited and went to go meet up with Manny again so me and Sixta could buy a shirt from them. Sixta bought Manny's favorite and me and Crystal bought the same one. We then hung out with him and talked some more. We learned a couple Australian words like "Grouse" meaning; Cool or Awesome. We talked about how unique heir band was and we made

a bet that if he didn't remember our names by August when we come back, he would give us all a free shirt haha. Then he gave me a book he was reading, "You Are a Spiritual Being Having Human Experience" so that i could read over the summer and bring back to him next time. I think that is flipping thight! The book is really complex and like he said "It's a Hard Read" but I'm determined to read it and bring it back to him. He then had to go warm up and we stole some poster while we listened to Emarosa. Once they were finished we got to the front of the stage and waited for them. They came into stage and Chris the main singer was wearing tights, a shinny pink hoodie and lipstick with crazy eyeshadow...yeea haha it was a little disturbing but really funny. These are they guys that dressed up as Christmas characters for one of their previous shows so i wasn't surprised. The show was REALLY good and the they played amazing. The crowed pissed me off. They didn't even bother to move. It seemed like the only people enjoying

the show were us four and some other fool in the front freaking out like me haha. The show was also short because the Audio Kit used in the stage broke so Emarosa had to use their own and them setting up took time off their set and it also shortened Closure's set as well giving the fact that they had to set up their own kit as well. None the less the show was amazing and i got to meet the rest of the band members afterwards except the drummer which i had seen around earlier). After that the day was practically over for us. We went and saw a couple more bands and ended it with The All American Rejects.

We left that place and headed home. We followed Crystal's

directions to a Fast Food Paradise only to get lost with both smart phones on the verge of Death!!! Haha but thanks to her we had hilarious moments, and we ended up practically eating the entire menu at Taco Bell haha. WE then left and finally got on track to our house. We talked, screamed and listened to music. We spit up all the things that we had obtained over the day (like the random condoms haha), and started dropping off people. Me being the last one dropped off, I said by to Sixta, entered my house and began my eternal slumber to finalize the day...

The day was another one of those days i will never forget, We watched

a lot more bands than what i mentioned its just i'm too lazy to talk about them all...some like NeverShoutNever, Streetlight Manifesto, Eyes Set to Kill, Suicide Silence, and a couple others...all the ones we missed i will see next time haha. OH and i skank'ed with Sixta (pic right) haha it was sick (Skainking is a toe of dancing to Ska music)

So here are other pics enjoy and i'm out

Closure in Moscow

Enter Shikari

Closure in Moscow (again)

Alesana

Warped Tour!!!

Ok so I JUST got back from warped tour and I'm exhausted so I'm going to blog tomorrow (well it's already today but whatever you get me) I promise a hefty blog and a bunch of pictures haha

Night

Burying Luck

So today was good, I recorded a song, tried fixing my other laptop and hung out with a friend. That's it...i have nothing more to say,

Throughout the whole day, i was happy and content but now i'm just not feeling it. I understand that everyone has these days but i seriously hate them. The whole day was fine, now I just want to go away, bury whatever luck i have and just sit in a corner and watch people go by. I just want to see what would happen. I'm not depressed or being emotional i'm just being curious. I have come to a point where i ignore peoples problems, and it's not that big of a deal because i used to always help out but i have just grown apart from that sadly. I don't expect anyone to help me and even if they did i don't need it. I help people when they ask for the help but when someone doesn't ask it's for a reason and it's because they need to be alone. I used to not understand this a while ago but i am now a master of. I personally think, solving things alone is the way to go. I don't want to give an emotional side of my thoughts or anything, just think of this as me simple expressing myself. Not sad nor happy, just there.

I don't really understand what might of have triggered these thoughts. Maybe i haven' been active enough today or maybe it was that one surprising text that left me wondering between truth or lies. Maybe i'm just sick of being tired or maybe i'm tired of being sick. Little things never bother me but today the simplest thing left me wondering and asking for answers i could not get.

I don't know

All i know is that I'm out

Night

Sweet Victory for Those That Cry

Oh YES! Again i can feel the smooth texture of an actual keybord and i can see from a screen that is actually bigger than my palm! haha I'm using the laptop again and it feels marvelous. I already broke my own laptop and its a matter of days until this one is filled up with unopened torrents and a but load of .exe files that take up all the memory on it :))) I seriously don't deserve to be using this laptop, i currently have it on top of my amp as i sit on the floor, each time i remove my hands from it the computer's status becomes a question of, "how long do you think it will be able to balance it self before it falls and breaks"...a question im faced with everyday with practically all my property...haha i like chances

So other than that today was fun, I got to see Toy Story 3

which is everyones favorite topic no a days, andi can see why. That movie wasn't only funny, it was entertaining and memorable. It brought back so many memories of my childhood days. At times i thought i was going to tear up but i kept them i and smiled haha. This movie is simply amazing, i can't really describe my feeling for it so i wont...sorry :) after that i came home to drown myself in music and to update my phone...THE HORROR!!!!

Ok, so...yes i have an iphone big woot, i honestly don't like pulling out in public because i feel like i'm bragging or trying to show off, which i'm not, i'm trying to read my text message. To be honest, i don't think kid my age should have things like this it turns them into materialist and its truly a big responsibility. I'm not excluding myself because I've been spoiled by my parents since birth even at times when we were completely broke. This made me realize that money, cars, phones and fancy stuff is not what my life is all about. Its all about the memories and experiences, the fun times and the friends along the way...

The whole updating my phone took about 3 hours because well my PC is crap and itunes is a device from hell...After that i started writing new songs but i was too lazy to record the two i made...Shorty after i invited my friend Carlos over and we chilled and talked about hilarious things. I showed him my song that i had recorded the other day and so impressed he didn't believe it was me and i had to go and prove it to him. This made me feel super accomplished, i felt like i did something amazing and that how he was reacting. He wanted to add lyrics and use his drum machine to add beats and such, which i'm pretty exited for. After that, i started learning some dongs on guitar..."Going Home" by Shiro Sagisu and "Every Place is a House" by Maps and Atlases. Every place is a house is a crazy song, the first time i heard it i though it was impossible for anyone to play something like that from the first time learning it, but after i tried it today i was impressed at myself...i was like "...wow i'm actually pretty good" haha, the song can scare at first but after persistent practice for an hour straight the intro becomes pretty simple haha and i'm pretty much half way through the song right now...haha congrats Gerardo :)

I had a cool topic to talk about today but i can't remember right now...Umm well on another random note...I continue to feel disloyal to myself to myself by not pursuing art, well at least not practicing, because i wish to pursue art as a career. I saw a friend's portfolio from last years art class and that person had increased in skill by SO MUCH, i felt somewhat envious that i'm not in the same position. I continue to search for my own style but i continue to find things that i enjoy but images that people find repulsing and scary. I don't care what people think but it becomes a problem when my art instructor denies my sketch and says that i shouldn't use the canvas and stick to painting in paper. I felt insulted and my fist was tightening for that punch to the face he deserved for waisting everyone's time in that art class. This previous year was a complete failure thanks to him. We only used finger paint as a medium and never advanced from that even though we were his most advanced class, with about 17 students in it. His greedy self and inexperience led to a unpleasant year and an endeavor to become better at something he was never good at...

With that said i'm off, I gotta buy Warped Tour tickets :)))))) i'm exited, Friday is going to be another memorable day!

oh the picture is in honor of the movie, its a picture of the talking Mr.Potato Head in Disney and the title is a completely random title I though of...its going into my ridiculously large list of possible song names

soooo...

Night

This Blog Needs Guns

I hate doing this through my phone but it would be impossible to do from my desktop, it's the mother of all snails when it's speed is challenged, so sorry for misspelled words, weird picture arrangements and just complete retardness (well you read all these things in all my blog but it's an excuse haha)

Hoy fue interesante, (today was interesting) the morning was the same as always breakfast served with a side of boredom, up until noon I was pretty much doing completely nothing. At around that time I learned a new song on guitar (Absentine Party At The Fly Honey Warehouse by Minus The Bear) and made a new one, too bad I could not record it, I have no access to the laptop.

A little after I went to Super Target and got myself a shirt, a button up and a hat, kinda like those Havana style ones, idk it looked pretty nice. I went home, showered again, ate and I went to this Youth Group that I'm part of, I had a fun time there, I got to see friends and got to spent time with them...
There are a couple things bothering me though, I feel content and happy at the moment but for some reason I find myself searching for something wrong. Today I saw something wrong on someone but that's not what I'm looking for because that's something I see every other week from the same person and it's completely retarded and unnecessary, oh not to mention very repetitive. It's that type of thing that concerns you the first time but once it's done twice a month and done to somewhat obtain attention of certain people
It kind of grows on you, it bothers and it shows you how immature some people can be. To be honest, it's not my problem and I'm obviously not the friend to solve it, well at least not the friend that person is looking for.

Ok sooo back to what ever I was saying, umm I search for something wrong when there is nothing wrong to be found. Maybe because that was today's mood, just somewhat slow and relaxed. I'm not completely sure, and I'm also not completely sure if you guys are going to get what I mean but hopefully you do...

As I was heading home I saw these two girls, more like teenagers, that seemed like they were taking a jog but were now resting and on their way back. One of them had one of those red blinking lights on her butt I guess so cars wouldn't hit her but I thought it was pretty hilarious. Well after seeing that I thought to myself, and wondered what they were thinking of or what they were discussing. Maybe they were just talking about their walk or maybe one of them had a very deep issue on her mind and she was sharing it with her friend who was there for her. Maybe they were just talking about school, or maybe they were talking about how one of them once fell in love and felt like the stars belonged to her at the time but now she realizes that she's still on earth, now that he's gone.Maybe a simple conversation about the type of shoes she's wearing or maybe a deep conversation on how one of them misses a close relative who just passed away, who knows what they were talking about. I'll never know.

"…I’m not happy here anymore.

We should’ve stayed at home tonight.
All the bright lights and company
are not what I need."

These are lyrics from the song "26 is Dancier Than 4" by This Town Needs Guns, They are for someone in specific, So they can relate to them, but they are for everyone else too. When i heard these words i realized i could easily relate to them so hopefully its the same for you readers. Hopefully that person gets over whatever is a bother and returns to normal, because its pretty dumB. Oh and sorry Ive been talking about this band so much it's just im trying my hardest to get into them and i promise you by the end of this week ill probably have someone new to brag about...

The pics were taken from an App i have on my phone that i took at Santa Monica last Sunday...enjoi

Sorry that my post have been utterly long and pointless it's just i always have something interesting in mind but it always comes out different.

Night and Thank You

Longest Day of the Year

Yet again I present to you a late blog which I should have posted yesterday night but I couldn't find the laptop that was in my room so I gave up and went to sleep, and that's where I am now, laying in bed doing this from my phone because I don't know where the laptop is....

Ok so today (yesterday) was a day I doubt I'll ever forget, seriously. Like I said in the previous blog I went to Disneyland with 3 of my friends just us, no one else. We spent


the whole day seperate, Gaby and her boyfriend Luis split and I spent the day with Vero. The day started pretty simple riding a couple rides here and there and laughing at anything and everything. Haha we had some really funny moments. At one tine we were in line and a guy with his kid and I'm guessing his new girlfriend was talking about his love life with this girl that could seriously give a crap. It was hilarious especially when he started saying how he became a "studmuffin" once he hit highschool and how he made the worst mistake of his life by breaking up with some girl. And he said all this in front of a girl that he hoped to get with haha. It was hilarious. After that we ate and watched a kid suck on the chain of a line (yummy).

The day went on and we got in a lot more rides. I was kinda screwed after riding splash mountain. Especially after some girl told me and vero that the person in the front seat doesn't get wet, the person in the secound one gets soaked. So me being the great friend I am let Vero in the secound seat and I took the front seat. After that let's say we were both pretty much soaked for the remainding of the day.


Later on when the day was coming to an end we watched the show Fantasmic while eating cotton candy and fruit gummies. Well I ate gummies, Vero didn't really want to share her cotton candy haha. So after that we watched the show and it was pretty amazing, I don't know what made it that way, it just was. After that we ran to the fireworks in front of the castle and got a good spot by sneaking in some weird spot and blocking everyone's view haha. And again it happened, I was memzmorized by the fireworks, I don't know...I was just completely lost in them, something I won't ever forget.

After that we tried getting in line for Peter Pan but it didn't really work, so we sat down and started talking but that turned into bikering and the guy next to me couldent stop laughing at us, and had to come into the conversation and state his opinion on our argument that it's "The Olive Garden" not "Olive Garden" haha the "the" makes it fancier and just an overall better place. He obiously agreed with me because it's the truth(Vero dosen't know what she's talking about) haha and we continued to argue and laugh and the guy next to us coulden't even breathe. I felt pretty awesome, I made a new friend and I made him laugh haha. After that we stood up and after I said by to him I came across a friend of mine and said hi and everything. Then we just rode two more simple rides to end the day we headed home
on a sleepy car ride.

This is one of those days, that no matter what I won't forget, and I'm glad I spent the Longest Day of The Year with such and amazing person.

California Hugs

Haha what a day...

At first i thought today was going to drag on and be boring but it was the complete opposite. Our family today decided to go somewhere....they didn't know where to go, so we just went to go eat at my dad's favorite Mexican restaurant El Torrito. The time there was fun, i stuffed some "flautas" and got a free ice cream :)
After that we just drove ad drove and drove...I was tired but in the back seat of the car there was 3 other people sitting with me which made it impossible to fall asleep. My legs were folded and crammed up. I didn't complain i just sat and twisted my body in different ways to look for a comfortable position to sleep in. Time passed by and we showed up at Venice Beach! haha i love this place, full of true Californians and lots of art, music and complete randomness. We walked down the path by the shore where all the stores are, we checked out a couple things, took pictures, and laughed at all the weird things that we saw. It was a little awkward being there with my family especially when they were asking me how the whole "medical marijuana" business worked. I don't know it just didn't feel right haha. While we were walking down we saw a really kool wall and i just HAD to take a picture of it. Its some really kool art work and i love all the characters, it gives the street a personality.

After Venice Beach we headed over to Santa Monica Pier where we took some amazing pictures of the sunset and of the water. We walked a little and went on the actual Pier. Here i was shocked to see a guy holding up a sign that said free hugs. It's not that i have never seen this before, it's just i actually had a chance at doing it. None the less I walked off without my hug. I felt like i kinda betrayed myself but it was ok. We walked a little further and we took some kool pictures and looked at other kool stuff. After we filled our souls with entertaining memories we decided to head back. On our way back i saw the same sign, tempting me to do something about it...but this time, it was a girl holding it. To be honest i feel way more comfortable hugging a woman than a man. So i went for it...I got my hug, i got to sign her poster and i walked off with a smile on my face, all the way to the car, knowing i did something different and meaningful.

The car ride back was just as painful as the ride there. To be honest my back hurts a lot and i got scared when my leg fell asleep and i couldn't lift it up...haha idk it was crazy

Other than having an awesome day today, i found out I'm going to have an even awesome-er day tomorrow haha I'm going to Disneyland again but this time with 3 very special people haha I'm really exited.
That's about it for today, im going to bed because i have to wake up early tomorrow soooo

Night

Ever Dance Of The Winter

Sorry for posting yesterdays post today morning, its just i was with my friends all night yesterday and my day hadn't ended yet so i felt as if i couldn't blog about the day until i finished my day...ill explain

Today was pretty awesome, Recapping on the previous blog, I attempted to Lucid Dream but i wasn't successful. I understand its not a one shot thing so i followed the advice Maggie May (i believe that's your name, sorry if its not haha) gave me in a comment on my previous post. She told me that interrupting her sleep worked for her and i thought i wasn't going to be interrupted because i didn't set up any alarms but i actually woke up about for times and i was able to remember 4 dreams :)))) I know it's not lucid dreaming but it a big step for me because i have never been able to do that. I thought writing them down after dreaming them was going to be a hassle but it was pretty simple, and every time i read what i wrote i remember the dream vividly. I'm really exited for this, I wasn't able to remember any dreams this time (last nights (its morning right now)) because i wasn't at my own house so i couldn't really do it...ill Explain...

So today (yesterday), was really fun. I woke up late and with all these notes explaining my dreams. I also woke up to see what i had drawn the past night out of pure boredom which I'm somewhat proud of...a lot cleaner than my usual drawings. The afternoon was spent slow and lazy, I made some pancakes for me and my sister and from there i went upstairs to record the song i made a couple days ago again, I took a nap, Listened to This Town Needs Guns, Foals, and Look Mexico. The day started to go and i finally found something to do. At around 8 i got picked up by my friend Crystal and her mom to go to their house. After stopping at the store to buy burger patties and such we got bribed by some dude to go buy yogurt flavored DOTS...i truly hate dots but this guy gave us a dollar so we could buy them. They weren't that bad i guess...At the house we ate burgers and hot dogs and kicked back for a while up until so other friends came and we played video games and talked and joked around.

At about 2:30 for some odd reason we decided to leave the house and go to Wall-Mart and go buy foam swords so we can duel each other O_o"....To be honest i don't even know why we did this, it was completely random. So we go in the car all 5 of us and headed to the store while we busted some Red Hot Chili Peppers had sang to it. When we got there we realized that they had no toy foam swords?! Only 15 dollar ones! it was ridiculous, the expensive ones were awesome and we had a little duel at one of the aisles until we were abruptly interrupted by a worker. It as funny to see 5 rather grown up teens messing around like this (i say "rather grown up" because were still all kids haha). After not finding what we wanted we tried getting a board game but we couldn't decide soo we left and got breakfast at Jack in the Box haha that was something everyone decided on, even though Crystal's sister was falling asleep. We all got something (except her) and headed back home. When we got to the room everyone when to separate places to do different things and i was left alone with Ariana (crystal's sis, I've said this like 10 times already) so i decided to take a bite out of everyone's meal including mine and wrap them back up...It was hilarious how we all tried to figure out who it was, we were blaming each other but no one found out it was me :) After that we played Monopoly in teams (Me and Crystal, V.S. Joel and Danny) Me and Crystal are masters at this game...At first i though we were losing but when Danny stepped in all the wrong places it was just a matter of time and they couldn't pay what they owed us. Danny couldn't even pay, taxes or the rent of a street that was worth $22, he only had 7 dollars.

After we destroyed them we headed to sleep, and realized the sun was out and it was 6 in the morning....yeeea i haven't slept haha

The picture is just a kool picture i took of my printer's ink cartridge. I'm not sure why it attracted me it just did.

So I'm off, Happy Fathers Day and thanks Maggie May for the advice :)

"Crazy, Crazy days are gone, welcome home" - Double Vision Quest by Minus The Bear

talk to you guys later

Lucid Dreamer

Yes i am a failure

I can't, I always try my hardest but i never can. I don't know why I never can but i am determined to do something about it. I will change...but i still wounder, Why Can't I Remember My Dreams?

Today i went to a Water Theme Park called Raging Waters. To be completely honest, i am sick of theme parks. I know that your inner 10 year old is screaming "What?!??!!" but I'm sorry I'm actually tired. Tomorrow i hopefully get to spend time with my friends which i haven't seen in a while...I didn't get a tan :(

So...yes that is a serious issue i face. I once suffered of mild insomnia but i never got checked up because I had already gotten a sleep test for another condition i had....I checked on the Inter-Web and i found out that things like snoring (which i usually do), late night allergies (which i suffer from), Uncomfortable sleeping positions (which i tend to have) and sudden awakenings (which i ALWAYS have) all lead to not being able to sleep correctly which leads to not being able to dream correctly.....WOW that F***ing sucks! I would love to be able to remember my dreams and be able to get inspirations from them. It's rare when i remember but when i do It's awesome cause i always tend to get inspired to draw or talk about my dream.

I also researched this thing called "Lucid Dreams" this is the ability to control your dreams and remember them completely. MY GOD that would be amazing. They say it takes a lot of practice to master it but it is an extraordinary experience. The first step to this is to be able to remember your dreams....wtf are you serious...so now that i am forced to experience this i am going to submit my self through test and such to reach a lucid dream stage. Steps like; keeping a dream journal, Doing certain things when i wake up, Interrupting my sleep at certain times during the night and submiting my self to listen to certain frequencies to indulge my brain in Brain Food...

I will begin today haha i will blog about the fail tomorrow

The title is related to the the blog but i added it to my immense list of song names i've come up with (yes i have a list). The picture was taken today when exiting the park...it reminds me of sleep for some reason....

So I'm off to practice, I supposedly gotta get a full 8 hours of sleep or some bull crap like that...all i need is like 3 and I'm good to go

Night

So Lets Get Out of Here

Oh My, My...

I made an amazing discovery haha...but before that...

Today i went to Disney California Adventure, The other park next to Disneyland haha. We have a three day visit pass and this was our second visit so ill be blogging about that when the day happens.
I love this park it always brings back great memories especially of those i shared almost an exact year from today haha. Last year I went with my friend Andres and his sis and it was loads of fun...Today was also chill, we rode a lot of rides like; Toy Story Mania, Tower of Terror, California Screaming, Soaring Over California, and a couple more. We didn't get to ride one called Mahulland Madness which is one of my favorites because the park closed at 6!! Which is ridiculous!! But whatevers, its chill...up around 5 when i rode the rapids i tuned my I-pod to "This Town Needs Guns" (to their self titled album) which is a band that I've been trying to get into for a while now, and for a good 3 hours i zoned out...their music completely hypnotized me, i was in a spell of continuous folk guitar picking with complicated but simple rhythms and amazing off beat accents. My God! i could not stop listening to them (I'm doing so right now) not sure why i was just in love with the calm music and sublime lyrics that were so SIMPLE!!! They made song lyrics out of a simple poem but each phrase pierced and stung like bullet. I advice everyone to go ahead and check them out. My favorite song so far is "Its True Rufus, Don't Listen To The Hat" I adore the way he sings the lyrics and the whole song because it ranges from smooth to rough in seconds.
I still have to get into their second album but I first gotta get over this one haha.

Today i also got to draw in Disney, There is a place where they teach you how to draw Disney characters. I drew Pooh and Piglet. The Pooh came out FAT but Piglet came out better. After this I kinda realized i hadn't been loyal to the whole "art" part of the Blog which was the sol purpose of it haha. So starting probably next, next week I'll continue with my art, It's just that i have family over and all we have done is jump from Theme Park to Theme Park...soo ill come back to that later on this month.

Oh i recorded a song today, it's SUPER rough and Sketchy...A Lot of the tracks go off beat and the volumes and starts are a little off but i still made it into an MP3 just to have it and to be inspired to work on it. The song sounds like This Town Needs Guns and Look Mexico, I have no lyrics for it because is more like an Intro or a Filler Song...so if i fix it ill show it to you guys :)
Oh Congrats Lakers haha

I'm Off Now

Night

I'll Do It...Tomorrow

haha i actually have things to talk about today :) i just got home and everyone is asleep because we have a big day ahead of us tomorrow but im up for some blogging...sitting here in front of the screen, i-pod in ear and willing.

So today i got a chance to hang out with one of my main nighas Andres! We usually just kick it and have lots of fun in weird ways and today wasn't any different. When i got to his house we jammed then we got picked up to go to his Fiance's house (Ana) which i had only met her once and it was a simple hello...We got picked up by his friend Albert which is super kool and we headed to Romoland where she lives.

Once there i gotta admit i was a little iffy about being there cause this was technically my first time meeting her and i was going to meet her family aswell?! Oh and to top it off Albert and Andres were warning me of her younger brother that was crazy...yeeeea. Once inside i felt a little awkward but i quickly felt at home well at least at Andrews house...I felt chill and i was easily able to talk to her mom which is a really kool lady, and very funny haha. Inside we talked about a couple things but they mostly talked about their friends which i don't know but i just listened and payed close attention. It was all pretty funny and interesting, their opinions, thoughts and feeling toward those they love haha. Andrew had a moment where he explained to Ana's mom how he loved her for who she was and not for the outside features. This was a rather hilarious conversation but it made me think a lot.

To be honest (and sorry) when i first heard that he was getting married and he told me i was a little Iffy about the whole situation. I though of how young they both are and how they are both so open for opportunities. But after thinking through i accepted it and i was really happy. I knew Andres isn't doing this just to get married, he is doing it because they truly love each other and that's something rare and wonderful.

After the visit we headed home and we talked about working and education. At that time i started thinking of myself and how I'm determined to go somewhere (collage wise) and study but there are so many variables that could change that. I love art in all aspects; Music, Art, Design, Writing, etc. I love it all, and even though i focus on art and music i still feel like I'm not doing what i should to be preparing for a life as an artist. I'm a procrastinator, and i am a minimalist in both ways (tnx for the word andrew) I always in art try to keep everything simple and minimal to make it unique but I'm also a minimalist in the way that i do the minimum requirement for everything...Nothing pushes me, nothing truly excites me, I always think negative but keep a positive attitude, "I'm A Wishful Thinker, With The Worst Intentions" and "I'm "So Good At Setting Bad Examples" (both lines from songs of Taking Back Sunday)...If you have met me in real life you would understand a lot more, I'm always relaxed, No Worries, and always laid back...nothing bothers me....so that's why the future of my education is in risk hahaha, but it's nothing to worry about.

Through out the day today i heard two Lines of Two different Songs that gave me the CHILLS, those that start at your toes and finish at your ears...yeeea crazzyyyy

"You can have my keys, my guitars if u just let me have the key to your heart" - The voice in the song completed the awesomeness of the verse

"I'm a bill you pay, I'm a contract you can't break, And it's like I'm under water, or on an endless escalator, I just go up and up, but I don't ever reach the top" - Damn what a line haha that one was crazy

The first picture is my nigga andrew and his fiance, and the second one is a flower a very special friend made for me out of play-dough i believe haha. I really like the picture and the flower haha

So I'm Off to sleep i need some,

Night

The Happiest Place in Cali!

Soo sorry about the late-ness of my blog but its just i was too tired yesterday, but i promised i would do it today haha even though i rather be taking a shower -_-"

So the morning was simple, i woke up and showered, ate breakfast and waited for about an hour an a half for everyone else to finish getting ready. We hit the road and set off on our adventure!!

In Morning and Amazing...
I started by playing an old play list i had on my i-pod that had Circa Survive, Dance Gavin Dance, Closure in Moscow and ummm thats about it. The first song that played was "In Morning and Amazing" by Circa Survive (awesome song) it reminded my of Bamboozle a couple months ago. Then from there i listened to Dance Gavin Dance and had to listen to the song "Skyhook" After a couple more Circa Songs i landed on Closure and listened to their cover of "Pony" (which i talked about in another blog) and that really did bring a smile to my face, that song always does! Before i knew it i was at Dland!!!

Skyhook
Once we got there i began enjoying every minute of my time there, i LOVE the smell of Disneyland (idk its weird). Every single ride and area has its own smell and feeling haha but we started with the best. Tomorrowland!!! haha there we got fastpasses for Space Mountain and rode AstroBlasters, (which i owned at) and then rode Star Tour. I really love Star Tours, its one of those rides that lets you know your still a kid and idk the whole adventure and excitement always leaves me wanting for more.

I rode Nemo's Underwater Voyage for the first time and i REALLY liked it haha it was really fun i don't know how, it just was.

From there we went to Peter Pan i believe, and rode that, (there are plants in the ride that have 7 leaves O_o" if you know what that means...crazyyyy) Afterward we got fastpasses for Indiana Jones and ran to ride Space Mountain!!!! Man ! what a ride!!!! that has to be one of my favorites, we rode in front and it felt like i was going UBERfast. My hairs was going crazy haha. That ride left me like...shocked haha i missed it...

Pony
We decided to eat outside of the park because we don't want to spend a lot of money inside so we hit up MickeyD's (McDonalds). There i was starving but...i just got two McChicken's with a small drink, i didn't want to waste money either lol...After we ate we headed back and rode a lot of things...too many i can't even remember...We rode Its a small world...i fell asleep, We rode Haunted Mansion and umm sorry...i fell asleep haha, i love both rides i was just tired...We rode Pirates that was fun and same with Thunder Mountain.

After riding Indiana Jones we slowed down and decided to wait for Fantasmic (fireworks/water show). There we told jokes and just kicked it until the thing began. We got to see the Fantasmic Crew Members organizing and making a plan and such for the event. I thought it was pretty funny haha.

Sweet#Hart
When he show began i had already seen it before so I thought i wasn't going to be memorized like the rest of my family but i was. That show was sublime, I loved it sooo much i want to go see it again. Thanks to that show i realized i LOVE Peter Pan idk why or how he is just a BAMF i think hes my new fav. Disney Character...crazyyyy

After that show was done we took a bathroom break and watched the other fireworks show which was kool but not as amazing as the 50th Anniversary one...that one is HxC!!(hardcore) haha After that we left the park, we were all tired and my nose couldn't take anymore of the amazing Disneyland Smells lol

The ride back was silent, my phone was dying so i couldn't listen to music :(

Other than that the whole day was truly amazing, can't wait till i come back, hopefully with a couple of my friends so we can do some dumb crap haha

The pics are all pretty bad sorry i didn't have time to stop and take really good ones so excuse me for that

talk to u guys later

Todayyy

Ok well I went to Disneyland today and I just got home but I'm too tired to actually blog so I will do that tmrw morning, ill put pics up And ill explain it all

Sorry

Night

Surprise Surprise!

So today came by complete surprise!

Friends and family gave me surprise party for my birthday (which is tomorrow, well today). I woke up to waffles again, edited pictures on photoshop and listened to some music until about 12 when i took a shower did my hair and such... After that i helped my sis with the cake she was making me, (she needed my artistic skillz lol) and shorty after that i took a small nap then was interrupted by my friend calling me to go hang out...I got dressed and such and headed out, she didnt want to tell me anything that she was doing so i was completely clueless up until i entered my house and realized there was an awful amount of people there, i was like "wait a minute..." haha it was the first time i was actually surprised at a surprise party lol

So the party was chill, it was not action packed or anything of that sort just a bunch of people i love being around and just had a good time...I got second place on a game of Spoons and i failed at B.S. (they're both card games)

so that was pretty much today, i got a pair of new toms and a diaper lol.

Umm im going to disneyland tomorrow, im pretty exited, idk we will see what happens

The pic is a pic of the cake...pretty self explanatory, its a hot air balloon, Google "on letting go Esao Andrews" if your curious

Night

Paper Heart

Today was chill, i got to sleep in

I just woke to some waffles and decided to go to church even though no one else in my house was going, i felt kinda proud of myself haha

After church we stopped at Super Target and then headed to a friends house for a party. The party was really chill and the people as well, i got to hang out with a lot of kool friends. We talked a lot, i mostly listened, i wasn't really in the talking mood, especially cause i feel like I'm getting sick. I got invited to swim tomorrow but i doubt it will happen, ive been feeling pretty crappy and i doubt tomorrow is going to be any better.

Setting that aside, the title came out of complete randomness, i was thinking of a good title and that came into my mind( i think its a movie). Well i don't just want to have a completely unrelated title sooo, my definition of a paper heart....I think a paper heart is love that was made because it was needed for a certain reason, not in bad way but not truly necessary. Like its love someone felt as if was needed to fulfill their dream, fantasy or such...or just pure curiosity. And this is not necessarily a bad thing, it could be fun and entertaining, it can bring good moments and create great memories. The only downside its that it is only temporary, it is there until the person gets what was needed. The heart was made of paper, because of complete need or want so when its unnecessary or boring, its gone.

and just like that I'm out

The pic was taken yesterday, idk i thought the little big foot was pretty kool....

Soo im off to sleep cause im sleepy or i might play CoD...who knows

Night

A Day Full of Summer

ok so yesterday I went to Knotts Berry Farm! haha yay!

At first i wasn't so exited to go, I have been there like a gazillion times and the park it self doesn't interest me much. As the day started i soon changed my mind haha. So the car ride was pretty ghey but once we got to the parking lot i soon realized this was going to be a fun day. When we arrived there i saw this bus! its the "Bustache" A bus with a MUSTACHE! holy crap i thought that was amazing. The bus was a local radio station's little transportation device. To be honest i would love to ride on one of those. Actually i would love to own one of those lol

When we got in the park it was filled with underage scene girls, teachers and socially awkward boys (i can't say much I'm pretty awkward) Yeea it was one of those days. The park was filled with school trips and summer camp people...But to be honest they weren't much of a bother they were all pretty chill. We rode some rides and my cousins actually rode them, i would think they would be scared of the bigger ones but they rode them all with no hint of complaint. I thought that was super chill.

After we We were waiting for my sister to get out of the rapids because not many of us wanted to get wet, and i realized something...I LOVE when people step out of the rapids thing and act like they got soaked with acid or something! They act like the water is Ooze and it is stuck to them. They extend their arm and look down at their body and start peeling the clothing off their body like it burnt giving a couple "Awww" and they have a couple gag reflexes...Jesus its water. Calm down witch!

After i ate at Panda Express, we went to go ride a ride called Pony Express its a ride that your seat is in shape of a pony and you ride it like a horse. In line they had the seats outside so people can check if they feel comfortable with then ride's style and when i saw the seat i started busting up laughing and singing "Pony" by Ginuwine (if you haven't heard it click here and click here for a kool cover of it by one of my fav. bands lol) Lol when i got on it and took a picture (that's me riding my pony lol) i realized the people behind me in line were laughing their asses off because of what i was singing. They ended up taking a picture too haha (WIN)

The day ended pretty smoothly, we left the park, check out the stores, and went to In&Out (yes I'm a fatass)

When i got home like at 11 we invited some friends over and kicked it in my house, we noticed my house was boring so we went to Jack in the Box and then went to a park at night just to chill but my sister was scared so we had to take her back home...after i played two games of CoD with them we went to my friend crystal's house and kicked it there until about 3am when we headed back home and i finally got some sleep haha

now I'm getting ready for church and i think im going to be late, oh well

talk to you guys later

Crap!

I forgot! It's technacly the next day, sorry I was playing cod and watching House MD :((((

So for the first time EVER I got cupcakes for my birthday, well it's not my birthday but it was an early present from my friend Chelsea because today was my last day of school and she wasent going to be able to see me anylonger....sooo yea that's the picture :)they were carrot cake ones :)))


Ok so I went to guitar center afterschool to buy some picks and I offered the lady at the door cake but she said she couldent eat any, but when I offered the girl at the area they sold the picks at she gladly accepted a slice and I told her to grab another bigger piece for her coworker haha I felt very generous because I also shared it with my teachers lol, I gotta pass all my classes!!

It dosent feel like there's no more school, feels like spring break...I'm going to knotts berry farm tomorow, that's pretty kool I guess haha

Ok so i'm already in bed doing this from my phone I'm just going to go to sleep

Sooo

Night

Pockets Full of Trash

Soooo Today! (i actually have things to talk about)

Same crap, school, finals, Owned the Spanish one, Passed history and had fun being bored.

The day started after school when two of my very special friends came over. They both kept me from being bored and one of them helped me wash my dog. YAY! After that i took a quick shower and we agreed on them two dropping me off at a nearby park so i could meet up with some other special someone.

At the park, I spent the time there talking and just having fun and such. The conversations were fun and humorous but as time went on we talked more of what is going on now a days and from there many things arose. I would like to say the word Obstacles but that sounds horrible and somewhat blunt. So i refer to the situation as a split road haha (much better).

In life we always encounter things like these, some are more serious than others but they always require someone making a decision, and that's the hard part. It's kinda like, you don't want to lose something but you don't want to miss out on the other thing. Sometimes its more of, You know what you want, its just it'd be right if you picked the other choice. I always say "Do What You Truly Want, Not What You Think Is Right" I would have loved to say that today, but its not like that, because both things are possible and good decisions it's just you risk loosing something in both sides of the road. It's somewhat like that one red hooded lady gurl thing, If she chose the right side she would get to the house safe but maybe not in time, if she chose the one on the left she would get to the house faster but she was in danger of being attacked by some creepyass wolf.

In the end its absolutely not up to me, as much as i would like to just make a choice (which i still haven't chosen) i cant. It's not my turn. Like anyone else would, I would love to cut to the front of the line and demand my food, but i can't cut the people, and I'm not the one paying so i can't be ordering my own food. You guys get me? (man I'm such a fatass, I make an issue into a metaphor relating food haha lol)

Well i hope this was a little more interesting than the others, i kinda feel like not many people are reading these things but who knows...

The image is a picture i took with an app of my phone, it always reminds me of those times when you stare at the roof and just think for hours, sorry i feel as if my pictures haven't been as "A" material as the ones started with, i haven't been taking many pictures so forgive me

Alright then I'm out

Night

Certain, Curtain, Same Thing

haha

So I've noticed (thanks to people pointing it out) that i am very bad at my spelling and grammar. I try my best to review and proof read my post but i always miss a couple words, especially when spelling check gives me the wrong words!!! Whatever

Today was spend cheating on tests and sleeping mostly. I Hate days when i stay home

(which are rare) so i decided to leave my house and go to a girl's basketball team practice at a nearby park. To be honest i didn't spend much time there, i just left to the stores around the area like the Dollar Tree and looked at all those irresistible prices haha

After listening to The Fall of Troy (which i hadn't listened to in ages) I started trying to record my music and such but i somewhat failed, I'm too much of a perfectionist when it comes to music. But throughout that process i was thinking of music truly has the power to change people and completely invite someone into the artist's life without even meeting them.
After that i stopped to listen to City and Colour, which I've heard many times before but it wasn't until today that i actually fell in LOVE with his music, It is so simple yet so descriptive and deep, idk i can tell I'm going to be talking about this all next week haha same with Look Mexico They've been helping me chill and just find inner peace for the past three weeks.

Sorry i wish this post was a lot more detailed and appealing but I truly have nothing to say, I have a feeling tomorrow is going to be a good day so expect something more interesting tomorrow (i hope) haha

The picture is from my toy animal picture collection haha this one is not an actual animal more like a dinosaur, but according to a very special friend of mine, all living organism that are non-human are animals (plants included, and I'm guessing dinosaurs as well)

So that's it for now, I'm out
(cereal time!)

Night

Relieving Boredom

I usually don't post twice on a day but i feel obligated to today.

I am currently in the computer room in my school and after i finished my science final (which was taken through a computer) i decided to look at all the other bloggers and such on the website and i found a lot of cool people that i ended up following. I still think the whole "follow" someone is a little creepy but i did it haha. I also felt inspired to write more and talk more about more serious matters not just my daily boring life haha

I'm actually cheating on a test as i write this haha. I shouldn't take pride in that but i don't want to fail the class.. oh and schools out so ill talk to you guys later on lol

This is a picture of people leaving school...idk its a pretty bad pic

Sleeping Instinct

Alright! you know what time it is?! its late

I am very tired haha, i spent the day sleeping in class and doing my math final. I was actually scared for it because my teacher had given us packet and a complete week to finish it (i have this class everyday) and instead of doing it i slept in every single period...i would wake up, check my phone for the time, see what he was doing on the board, see a problem that was longer than these blogs, realize i didn't remember how to do none of that stuff and then i just went back to sleep. And i did this for the 6 days he gave us to do it...today came and i realized i wasn't ready, he decides to give us a quick 15 minute review, and i fall asleep lol i just couldn't keep my eyes open. The test came and it was surprisingly easy, i just plugged in all the possible answers into the problem and got an answer, i got to number 26 and decided to take a power nap (i had 2 hours to finish it) i woke up, i finish and i turn it in...it was awkward because i finished at the same exact time as the kid sitting next to me and we both turned it in at the same time...(hopefully Mr.Stowe doesn't notice i cheated lol jk)

After school i went and raided about 20 stores asking for applications and i got about 15...lets hope i get a job! once i got home i took another power nap, ate and then i built a drawer with my dad...it was rather easy its just there were a lot of things that had to be done... the whole process reminded me of building legos

I have no real topic today, I just feel a little down cause i know i have to go and finish some English thing that is due tomorrow right now and all i want to do is sleep :( but im pretty happy because a special someone read my blogs and that made me pretty happy haha, it was a little surprising but pretty kool haha thanks

The picture is a wrapper of an Oatmeal & Raisins cookie my dad bought at Wahoo's Sunday, It was pretty funny so i took a picture haha

Alright i got crap to do so ill talk to you guys tmrw

for now, I'm out
Night

On Letting Go...

Well i had planned talking about my day like usual but after reading my friends blog post it made me think of a bunch of things, like no joke. (link here its called ADHD)

So back in the day we were just kids, because we would think like adults but dream like kids and not much has changed since then. Now a days I'm stuck "On Letting Go" that's a place where you decide you gotta let go of things but you just cant (its also a album name of Circa Survive), I feel like i have to let go of those fake hopes and dreams so i can fool those that don't know me into believing that I'm not just a kid, but the truth is the only one I'm fooling is myself. Do i really need to let go of all those dreams and hopes i once had and shared with the closest of friends? Now that I've read my friend Andres' post (one of the kids i shared my hopes with), i realize that i don't...i don't have to let go of what i had and fought for. Even though people are changing, the hill is getting steeper and these walls are slowly closing in. I know that if i stick to what i truly want ill find a door out of this window-less room.

Its crazy but now a days i realize the only people that keep me company are just a couple special friends and Minus The Bear haha well not only them, its all my music in total...and im happy with this, "Quality Over Quantity" i don't need a hundred friends as long as the friends i have are true, and as long as i got you, i don't need anything else....crazy but true

Today was the same as any other school day, i got a couple comments saying that my shoes looked super comfortable and that they looked like nurse shoes which i took as complements because im really enjoying my new shoes, and i got a new bed...i finally got rid of my 15 year old bed...crazy memories (if you know what i mean) lol jk

I wanted to post my artwork of the album art "On Letting Go" but i don't have a picture of it and its at school so ill leave you with this amazing picture my friend Vero took (she also took the pic of the flower)...I don't have a lot of to say, other than sunsets always leave me speechless and that I'm still thinking of, and waiting for you...who ever that may be haha

Alright i gotta go now and thanks Andrew for all the good old memories

I'm Out

Night

Almost Forgot

haha i almost forgot i had to do this (i make it sound like its a chore)

Oh! hey there! Pleasure to see you again or at least speak to you, Whats up Gangsterrr....
ok...Today was simple...Morning Pancakes, Church, and shopping...I hadn't realized how much i HATE Costco, Sam's Club, & Wall-Mart!!! We had to stop at the first two today and it was complete torture! (we didn't go to Wall-Mart but i still hate your guts!) other than that today was chill, i got to eat at Wahoo's which i enjoyed very much so and i got my TOMS today :) I'm exited to wear them around haha

Aright so recap of yesterday which i didn't explain cause i was too busy eating my feelings away at I-Hop...Soo i saw the Prince of Persia....To be completely honest it was pretty good, it did justice to the original video games (even though i was never a HUGE fan of them) and the acting was pretty good, the main character was a bamf and it had some really funny parts, i wouldn't mind watching it again...

OK so I'm going to let you in a little secret...i designed some sick-ass shirts on photoshop for my school's student body crap thing, but the thing is I'm afraid of posting my designs up because they are not yet copyrighted or anything. And yes that's such a pussy move but after listening to a friend talk about how his music and art got stolen through the internet it gave me reasons to wait and publish them later on....soooo ill let you guys in once everything is ready to go...if you see me around you can ask me and ill show you how it looks but I'm not ready to post it...

The picture was taken yesterday at I-hop after a miracle happened, The straw stood up by its self in my drink...idk it was pure magic!!! i had to share it with you guys

Split Decition Breakfast

Guess where I'm at!!!!! IHOP!!!

Haha I'm doing a latenight I-Hop run with crystal and her family, and guess what I'm getting!!! Pancake Combo!!!!!!! Haha hash browns on one side of the battlefield (plate), with the scrambled eggs in the other, head to head, ready for combat, both fighting for the glorious two princesses (pancakes) that rest back in the village (seperate plate) with the bacon and sausage watching on both sides of the battlefield watching the horrid battle knowing that they would be the last men standing after this Armageddon...

When the battle begins, blood(ketchup) is splattered all over the battlefield with gold spilling from both sides (syrup). As both teams battle the village both princess ready them selves for death by oiling themselves with gold, Back on the battlefield, the battle is over and I am the only true victor, both spectators waiting for their future, the horrid royal massacre begin and the outcome is a total destruction of the village and princesses, after the spectators have witnessed it all... They now accept their faith and die honorably....and I'm happily ever after :)

Haha I hope you guys understood that lol, the picture is self explanatory... and the title is a breakfast option on the menu (it sounded kool)

I'll leave you now cause I'm about to dig into my food and it's kids hard to eat and type with my phone

Thanks &

Night

Location:I-hop