Close Your Eyes to See

I don't know what to do!!!! (ill explain in a bit)

First of all, Today was pretty fun...I had I-Hop for breakfast ($#@! YES!) then i headed home to
leave to a friends house to a kickback until like about 6 when i came back home...the party it self was really chill and fun..to bad we left so early (even though we were the last to leave)

Well after i got home i had a session of Minus The Bear and realized how the famous Charles Trippy (or better known as CTFxC in youtube) TOTALLY RAPED the fact that Minus the Bear was kinda not known...not saying they were underground but they kept a nice level of reknown for fans to enjoy...anyways charles said in one of his videos to go check out Minus and crap like that and at first i thought that was pretty kool but then i realized that their youtube channel was now bombarded with ctfxc fans reclaiming how awesome they are (can't blame them for that) and now i came to reaize that Minus's fan base grew by the millions and is now filled with "Lady Gaga loving, The Beatles posers and Retarded controlling-puberty-changing-Hipsters"

Whatever i hope their fan base doesn't go to the shiter because of this...

Back to my first topic...I can't decide if to continue this picture like i wanted it in the sketch or to do something less creepy and more sane...The original sketch is the top right pic, (click on it to see it bigger) it was a hand holding some kind of bouquet that bled and had an eye at the top suffering and dripping while tentacles came out of the bouquet, oh and the hand is coming out of some creature's mouth with sharp teeth....the second pic to the bottom right is a more detailed pic and the background is what i started on...I, instead of drawing part of the hand, i decided to draw the whole thing so i can erase what i don't need afterwards, but the hand came out so clean and sane it would be almost inhuman if i corrupt the picture with my dark thoughts...the details came out pretty good and im proud of what i started with but ashamed of what might the final product be... CRAP!

I'm still not sure what to do...you guys should help...ill put this piece down for a couple days and reflect on it...for now i gotta draw a zombie for my friend Danny which i will probably be posting tomorrow if its any good

The tittle is a song from Circa Survive and it has a line that says "cause nothing you've ever planned on ever turned out the way you planned" (relating to my struggle)

Still thinking of you

Night