Stories without endings

Long time no see, or talk I guess haha. Well the reasons I haven't been blogging are just complete lazy-ness I knew that if I stopped for more than a day I would lose my commitment...oh well haha I'm going to try to get back in track but no promises.

Now that I'm doing this I truly miss it. Crap happens and now that I've been avoiding this it feels like I have no one to talk about or no one to express my self with. My friends are always a good cup but I'm a listener not a talker...some people don't understand that because they are the complete opposite but other people out there are just getting to understand the fact that I am who I am and it's actually hard for me to say what's inside specially when I'm talking to someone directly. This is a form of talking to almost an anonymous crowd. The reason is cause I don't personally know some of the readers so it's easy to just say what I gotta say. I'm not saying that Im the type of person that would just randomly express my feeling to a stranger I'm just saying I'm the type of person that would walk up to a stranger and ask them their favorite color haha. Some of these readers know me but the thing is they read and they are fine with that they don't ask or anything and they are more than welcomed to do so I'm just saying that they don't haha.

I'm currently spending a whole


week in Palm Desert, CA with my family and a bunch of my friends. We got here Friday and it's been awesome we've done so many things it's not even funny haha but I must admit I have found myself bored. I was also at a concert with my nigga last week. We went to go see the Scream It Like You Mean It tour. The tour had six bands with Silverstein headlining. To be honest I only went to go see two bands...We Came As Romans and Dance Gavin Dance haha I have always bagged on Silverstein and Emery, I had never been a fan. We left the house at like 5 when the show started at around 445 haha the house of blues was around 2 hours away in the sunset boulevard in LA. We got there just in time to see WCAR's last two songs and I got to see DGD's full set. Then emery and Silverstein came and I just enjoyed the show they played good and I had fun haha. I moshed and got down. We ended up at a drive-thru of Jack In The Box and getting home late it was pure fun haha...

The week spent here at the desert has been complete relaxation haha there have been little things that bother me and such but that's also been fun haha...I've had time to just relax and talk to by friends about life and such, something I enjoy. We met some friends but I think we scared them off haha


I'll post another blog in a bit, later on...

Night for Now :)


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So Far Left, It's Right

Hello there, its been a while haha

So i took a little break from the whole daily blogging to come up with better thoughts and such. I felt like the blog kept getting dryer and dryer so that was my end result. But now im back and my mind is full of thoughts and my phone is full of pictures haha

This past week has been rather chaotic, in a good way. Instead of staying home and doing nothing like usual summer days are spent in this bare city i spent them doing unimaginable things!!! like....walking haha and doing stuff haha

The week was full of random encounters with people i hadn't seen in ages and fun times with the usual people i kick it with. I bearly got any sleep this week and it hasn't been a problem what so ever. I would explain every day with clear details if i could but i am a goldfish and my memory is joke. I don't remember crap haha. Non the less i had loads of fun. My cousins that were staying at my house are now gone and ummm i don't miss them haha they were fun and all but i usually don't miss people, as sad as that might sound. I had loads of fun with them and i can't wait till i go visit them in Puerto Rico this winter.

Another big thing that happened was my friend is now married. The kid that ive known for the longest time is now married. congrats :)

My undeserving break brought about multiple things, it actually got me to work on my art a little more and I got a couple sketches done. They aren't too great but yet again their just sketches. My summer is kinda screwed now. My art teacher sent me my summer assignment to enter Advanced Placement Art and it's a B****....I have to go out and buy over 100 dollars on supplies for a class that is going to be useless thanks to the unprofessional teacher I have. Whatever. My drawings have been getting better and no thanks to him... The sketches that I'm showing were completely out of randomness. The one with multiple arms wasn't even meant to be that. I started to sketch lines and ended up with arms and finished with a man. I didn't know what to do for the faces so I kept them white on both...I look at my art and I am proud but I usually end up throwing it aside or hiding it because no matter what I draw it usually ends up being amazing through my eyes but horrid through the eyes of others. I still haven't found support for the grotesque art I make and enjoy so I tend to back off on it, especially on a class where everyone loves drawing pretty eyes, mountain tops, hearts, beautiful portraits and babies...this is not the place is belong in haha

That brings me to my recent thought. After seeing peoples life's and reading peoples adventures, I am eager to leave this town. I don't hate this town, I believe it's a great place to live and grow up but not a place for free-minded, imaginative people. The whole city is built on a rubric that people must follow. Well that's how I see it. People here don't see a problem so they don't change or explore. Big cities are where people don't know each other, but friends are abundant. A place where everything you need is around the corner and repetitive. Where walking is recommended and driving is ridiculous. Haha cities like LA, Seattle, Santa Fe, San Fran, NY and others. This is what usual teens say and think of but I find myself finding a deeper though in it. I don't feel the need to escape my home or get out of this place, I just think it would be easier to be myself in those places where people don't care but they express.

This also reminds me of another thought or I should say, feeling. That feeling of being needed. This is not something that bothers me frequently but I always think of it...Do they really need me? Am I just an object? Am I here just for them? Crap like that, I usually never ask my self this but when I do I find myself in a crash course of realizing little details in people but I always end up where I started...not caring haha. It's just that simple, those things don't bother me. I don't care, I love doing things for others in return of nothing. Reviving doesn't make me feel alive, exploring, living, and giving is a good enough present for me haha. It's that simple...

In between the last paragraph and this one there was a time gap...even though you can't see it there was a pretty big one. The last paragraph was written past monday and it's now Sunday. I originally wanted this break to be a week long but things happened that made me extend it. I also realized I'm afraid of posting this because that means I have to go back to doing it daily and even though I've missed it sooo much I feel like I am not ready. But I am and I will post this today.

I'm that extra week so many good things happened but so many went wrong as well. I

don't want to explain just know that at times I felt like I was truly enjoying myself but now I kinda feel like a complete asshole by ruining someones special day, their birthday...sooo yea that's all I have to say about that...I just came home from watching the movie inception...go watch it, it's practically lucid dreaming gone crazy...if you haven't read my previous blog about lucid dreaming check it out, you might be interested in it if you liked the movie or at least the concept of it...

I'm now out...ready to start again

If I feel it or not so for now...

Night

Everything Seems Like A Lie When The Truth Is Told

Onwards with adventure, this morning I found myself laying on a trampoline looking straight up at the sky stuck between two people trying to sleep. When they left me and Danny were now inside sleeping bags which we called our "Caccoons" which came after a short discussion about an old show called Venture Brothers. "To the caccoon! My monarchs!" haha it's a pretty funny show. Then we used them as a transportation device and jumped our way inside the house and watched Valentines Day. I must admit, it was a pretty kool movie, but pretty sad though. Then I laid there while everyone else woke up and watched Half-Baked. The breakfast was made but I bearly ate. About one hash brown and a scoop of eggs. It wasn't long until we had to leave and I was home thinking about the fact that I had not gotten any sleep what so ever in two days. Our family then decided to adventure



I showered, got ready and jumped in the car. My first thought was to take a nap in the car and by the time we pulled out of our main street I was already gone. After an uncomfortable nap I woke up thinking I was on my way to vegas. The desert was all around me and cactus were the only plant in view. I was a little shocked. It was the usual "wait but I only slept for like 5 minutes" Yea, that's me....I took pictures of the landscape because it looked really kool. Then I realized we were going to palm springs. There we stopped at a Pizza Hut and there was were I posted my last blog. I ate like a pig and licked the grease dripping from the pizza (that's kinda nasty). Afterwards we went to the town and my dad had the brilliant idea to get off in 110 degree weather. Yeeea not so kool, we were all practically dyeing by the first 3 minutes, my dad insisted to continue walking but we convinced him not to. We then got on the road and I fell asleep again. I was then woken up by sharp turns and ups and downs. I was on my way to lake arrowhead and I truly enjoy it up there but I hate the drive there. The sharp turns the fact that your body won't stay still and then when you body slides from one side of the leather seat to the other...my god.

Once there we walked around and chilled at a park, they took pictures and I relaxed. I listened to a lot of music and found out about a couple new bands thanks to LastFm. We walked and stopped at McDonalds, I got a sweet tea while everyone else got ice cream.



The day then ended when we all decided to leave, we got home I napped and woke up to play guitar. I listened to music, talked to a friend on the phone and now I'm here, laying bed doing this...I'm probably going to watch some house and head to bed,

Night

America, The Oh So Great

So yes it's late but I'll explain in a bit

In my last post I ended the day


with a simple "night" like I always do, not thinking of the possibilities of the night extending. Well that's exactly what happened, Andrew hit me up and I left the house at 1 in the morning. We were celebrating and this time for reals. The last bachelor party was canceled and we were not able to do anything but this time we were actually doing something. Who cares If it was just three of us haha.
I got picked up and we headed to I-Hop! Haha there we had some hilarious conversation involving Japanese condoms, which I'm not going to explain, and we ended up scaring our waiter so much he had to escape from the back door. After that we left and went to Andrew's and Eddie's place of worship (I'm not sure of the name so that's all I'm going to say) if I recall correctly, Eddie is son of a head person of the church and he had the keys to the place. We went in and to be honest I was scared, the whole fact that it's a holy place and the fact that i always thought trespassing private property was a stupid crime to get in trouble for. There I learned more about their religion and how things work in there, he made fun of a couple things and people and we talked about dumb things like Left 4 Dead and BioShock haha. The night ended after that, I got dropped off home and I realized....that was just what I expected. That was the best bachelor party I might ever attend, It was really what was needed and what was expected, one of the chillest most memorable night. Thanks




So yesterday, the all glorious forth of July! Yeeeea big flipping woot! Me being puertorican, horned and raised there, I truly take no pride in this country, I am thankful of the place I am in and for all the opportunities I am given but I am a puertorican at heart and nothing can change that. If I were giving a choice to go back to Puerto Rico or stay here I would pick to stay here. I have my reasons and it sounds hypocritical and contradicting but It's another topic I have not touched on.

The 4th of July was spent at a park of my neighboring city, there I spent the day with friends and family, I ate weenies and enjoyed my time there. We stayed for fireworks and sat and watched, they were pretty kool, gotta admit. From there i got picked up by crystal's mom and Gaby and Vero, I were going to sleepover at their house. We picked up crystal at work and stopped by my house. From there we arrived at their "crib" and had loads of fun. I am going to explain all these exiting times in the next blog because I feel like this post is a little too long and I'm about to eat soo...

The first pic is a monster Andres drew on my fire extinguisher, and the other one are the fireworks...

I'll post another one later on

Stars, Stars and No Wish

The stars are out today, it's a beautiful sight. It's pretty common here but sometimes I don't appreciate it or every now and then the earth seems to be corrupted by light and it cover nature's beauty. The earth knows all the wonders it beholds but it is envious of others. Others where there is no one to block these wonders. Where the human race grows on top of what used to be the true natural flow, something that we now see as a specter or something of similar. Something rare and beautiful, but at the same time it can be shocking and terrifying. It's almost like the idea of love, people search for it and make an image for it but they don't stop to realize it's all around even if it's not the same pretty picture someone once drew for you. Love can be harsh but at the same time needed and breathtaking. Just like nature and that's why I love it so much haha.

That all was pretty random haha, today I went to a friend's graduation party. With that I congratulate you my friend, my hugging buddy haha. Whatever challenges may come forth I'm sure you'll be able to overcome them, so congrats and good luck. There I had a good time haha, I spent time with a lot of friends and talked about lot of things. I was also thinking of things that bother me, I'm not one to be annoyed or bothered but certain things bug. The one thing that gets on my nerve is when people tell you they gotta tell you something and then they never do, or when they tell you they have to ask you something and when you remind them they tell you it's not important haha. It's something simple but it bugs me, I don't care how insignificant that question was, I don't care haha I just wish to know.

There are other things that bug me but I don't really like complaining haha. Today I was thinking of how people try and try but never achieve. I ask my self, "did they not try hard enough" or "was it just not meant to be" and I never find an answer. There are times when the failure is so unexpected, I am shocked and found in amazement. I try for this not to bother me but sometimes is just some people really deserved it. I don't know, maybe I was wrong or maybe "it just wasn't meant to be" they both seem like a dumb excuse.

So that's all folks...I don't know but I'm going to watch some House, I'm obsessed with that show!


The picture is unrelated haha

Night

Bridges I Can Not Pass

Yea, im late...whatevers

I really want to continue with the whole log thing but i have seriously been too lazy. I've spent days doing nothing. I see this as a chore or a duty but thats not the truth. When i started i feared getting to this point. When i see other's blogs and similar things i see that it just needs getting used to. If i can constantly do it i will become used to it and it will be something required for me to sleep, something that if i don't do i will feel betrayed by my self. Yes, i have explained myself before, i am a procrastinator but everyday life gets a little rougher and i can't be leaving things in a bag stashed aways because when i least expect it that bag is going to be in front of me and its going to be huge. So this is a sort of discipline or learning block to improve myself. I have never been the one to try to help myself do crap. I usually continue not doing anything or not giving a damn about life and i succeed. I see so many things everyday and realize and can't leave everything up to luck and chance. I usually let people decide and i go along because to e honest nothing bothers me. People have stepped on me before and i have not cared what so ever, if thats what they need to do they can go ahead and do it even if it means leaving me on the side. I also understand that this is not a way of living and i'm not the type that lets things slide by, i see them and administer them but when i see that they mean no harm to me i just leave them be and i continue to watch them as they affect others. It's somewhat selfish, to just sit back and watch but then again i'm peoples doormat for what ever they attempt to do.

I got a little out of line but what i'm trying to say is that i need to continue this and be punctual about it. If i do this i can learn to be the person i'm supposed to be haha..get me? Even if no one cares what the hell i did that day or even if no one reads these im still going to do them to better myself. The few people that read these is the reason i got to realize that i need to keep doing this. Not to be loyal but to become who i need to be haha...this might make no sense but whatever, its whats on my mind and its pretty pointless

The picture i took yesterday and i found it funny because i could not distinguish if it was a male or female. The artist clearly added female attributes but made his face with a male in mind. His string jaw and chin line, broad forehead and rough neck...i'm still not sure

so ill post something later on for todays adventure

see ya

Hooray!

Today I got to hang out with two of my friends but most importantly one that I had not hung out with in a while. This kid is crazy in a literal sense, this is the type of guy that is always down to do anything...even jumo off a roof. But at times he becomes that friend that you see a lot and everything but you still question your self asking if your still close to him like you use to. You know he's your friend no matter what but you just haven't been there for him in ages so you just feel like he's distant. That's how I at first felt with him. I love thing kid but I've just been doing things and he's been doing his own stuff as well, we have not had time to kick it. Well when he got there we walked a but load but just by the first couple minutes I knew this was the same fool I've always known. He's still crazy, he's still hilarious and he's still down for anything haha. My other friend felt a little weird well cause this is only like the 3rd time they hang out together so he was still getting to know him. Me being the crazy kid I was with him and the kid I still am now started singing "Dancing Queen" at the top of my lungs as we exited Target so he could attempt to dance to my singing. It was hilarious, i also made a hip hop beat and he came in and actually rapped and made it flow like no ones business haha. We used to be both crazy but I calmed down. I for some reason didn't want to do dumb things anymore, I'm not sure why. One of the reasons is that we bearly saw each other and when we did we just kicked it, nothing special. Thanks to today I was pretty much able to remember the old days when a lot of crap didn't matter. When you making a complete fool of yourself was one of the most hilarious things you could do. When sticking your head out of the car and singing Taking Back Sunday and Bayside lyrics at the top of your lungs was the most stress releasing thing you could do. Those were the days.

Well kicking it with him pretty much deprived me of all the energy I had. We walked a lot so n we got here I showered and slept. I just napped and napped haha. It was pretty relaxing, sleeping while listening to Minus The Bear.

"we talked about growing old and filling the future's empty stage"

"I hope the weather holds, but you don't need the sun to make you shine, these island towns don't care for city folk but I know we can start the city from our minds...I know we won't run for much it's just you and me and a bed and a shoreline"

These are both lyrics from what must be one of my favorite minus songs. "This Ain't A Surfing Movie" the first phrase is a piece I always loved and the long verse is actually the last thing he says in the song and it's why it's my favorite. It always reminds me of a very special friend. That same friend provided me with the second picture of the hibiscus flower. I must admit it's very beautiful and it's served as my background for a couple days now. The first pic is my crazy friend being a pirate haha and the third picture is from my other special friend that sent me this crazy as pic while I was writing this up. I must also admit this picture is pretty extreme, these girls should be pros haha.

Other than that, that is all I have to say today. Hopefully this post was a little more dedicated that the other recent ones that we pure crap. Oh and Hooray to the fact that it's July!!! Haha the title of the blog is also a song by Minus The Bear so check that out haha

Alright

I'm out

My Sharona

So today,




It started out pretty simple. I woke up and hung out my room, I then started to listen to my music when I was rudely interrupted by my sister. I got ready and headed off to my friend's Fernando's apartments to go swim and eat some weenies. We got there, cooked some hotdogs on his grill and went to the pool there we kicked it for a bit and I ate 4 weenies. We then go in the pool, hung out played and stuff. I gotta admit I suck at holding my breath underwater but I dominate at chicken haha.

The day then went on, I went home and Fernando is now spending the night at my house. My sister went to go see avatar the last Airbender on the midnight premiere while me and Fern kick it here at home. I'm kinda hungry though.

I'm going to let you guys go cause I have nothing to talk about, I should get back into being more dedicated in my blogs but then again I'm probably the laziest kid you know :)

I thought that pic was funny enjoi

Night

Sorry

So I just opened my computer and realized I never posted yesterdays blog so I dint even bother to post it, sorry I will fulfill my need to post today probably late, sorry yet again


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Misjudgments On The Dinner Table

Today was spent at home, i woke up late and stayed home all day. I never saw the sun and if no one requests me to catch a glimpse of the moon it will stay unseen by my eyes. Yep. Thats all.

Well i'm not going to leave a completely useful post empty. So lately i haven't been texting people. I have never been a big "text-er" but its pretty weird to find myself not communicating with anyone outside my house for a whole day. I usually have people texting me just to talk and such but today that was not the case. I had a couple text waiting for me to reply on my phone but i never replied. I'm not sure why. I woke up to a text that i quickly thought of a response for but i just didn't reply i'm not sure why...It was something about yesterday's mushroom incident, i knew if i replied this was going to be a fun conversation but i don't know why i didn't. Haha i received another text from someone i hadn't talked in ages and i also received a couple more different ones but i didn't reply what so ever...

Even though the day was spent inside and pretty lonesome I enjoyed it. The day went by super fast. Probably because i woke up at 2pm. I also spent the day listening to TTNG, I seriously need a new band. I heard this awesome band yesterday! but i didn't find anywhere to download their music so i haven't gotten into them what so ever.

I really want to talk about something, like i feel like this post is pretty pointless (which is the point of the blog) but i still want to talk about something. I just don't know what. I guess im talking about not being able to talk about anything, or at least come up with a new topic. SO i guess that's todays topic which i did not really discuss....so im out i guess

The title is completely random, and the image is a picture i took about 30 seconds ago of my desk. Here you can see a neon green towel, a knife (i have a lot all over my room), two skin tones socks, unopened water, sharpie, candy and my computer screen open to itunes....yay

night

Yet Again

So yet again I post this late! Man! I almost forgot too....

Today was chill, I went to Church, And hung out with my family. We went to go eat at a Cuban restaurant and it was really good and all but something really nasty happened. So I ordered chicken and it was like on a sauce and it was good, I ate about half of it and I was really enjoying it. Then I look down at the plate and I see something, when I first saw it I was like "no It can't be" I took a closer look and there they were!!! Mushrooms!!!! They were swimming with my chicken!!! Oh my god! I almost threw up! I set it aside and without freaking out I just ate my rice and beans. This was so disgusting I could not even look at it. Oh by the way I HATE mushrooms! I wanted to call my friend crystal and just scream at her because it was probably her doing somehow. She's that one friend that always contradicts the one thing you hate the most and she always eats mushrooms just to bother me. That is probably why it was her doing.

Afterwards we went to some mall and shopped and crap. I didn't buy anything. Once it closed we raided krispy kream donuts, haha and we bought some. We headed home and I read some of Manny's book then talked on the phone with a friend. Now I'm here doing this haha

I have no alternate topic today I'm too lazy to talk about anything else. I'm going to watch some House :)

The picture is a random one I took last time I was in Santa Monica...enjoi

I'm out

Night

I'll do that for a buck

So sorry my post have been late it's just I've been up till real late lately so I haven't been able to post in time, so forgive me

Yesterday was very interesting haha. I woke up to listen to music, and clean my room. Warped Tour's aftermath was devastating and my room took a pretty nasty blow. So after my crap was all organized, i did some other things and finally ate breakfast at like 1. My friend Carlos came over, we hung out for a while and had some laughs. We then decided to go to our town's Birthday Party Bash that they were having in a sports park near by. We walked there and I was supposed to get there and take a city bus that drop me off by a Jack in the Box so I could meet up my friend Andrew for his bachelor party. Well that never happened because I missed the bus and I was now ride-less. We then decided to eat a pizza and buy some drinks from the dollar tree. We ate, and we crossed the street to go to the park. There we saw a lot of familiar faces. We were constantly stoping to say hi to people. One of the friends I spotted out was my friend Tania with her bro and a girl named Lauren which I had just met. We talked and her friend Lauren actually offered me a ride to Jack in the Box. YAY! Haha, we hung out there for a while and then drove to the dollar tree. On the way there (by the way it's just across the street) Lauren sped up in a yellow light and we almost hit some fool crossing the street. It was funny but then I realized who was driving me and this person is not safe with only one month of experience haha. We then go candy and headed to jack. In one of the lights she had to turn on she had to stop in the middle Of the road because of people crossing and she flipped out!!! She started screaming at the people crossing and I was pretty scared by this time. When we got to the parking lot of jack I thought I was safe but she speeds up through it and then notices a speed bump and slams the breaks flinging everyone in the car....when I got off the car, I was thankful I was alive

I then kicked it in Jack for like 2 hours waiting for Andrew to get off work which I didn't mind. We then got in the car and headed to his goodbye party that had already ended. We hung out there the couple opened their presents and they got the deep frier they wanted haha. Afterwards we went to Ana's house and chilled there, but not for long, we then headed back to andrew's house and slept over after we talked and listened to music. This was another night with nearly any sleep haha.

And that's about it, I'm now home waiting to leave and I'll be posting today's blog in time hopefully :)

I'm thankful that I have random friends haha thanks Tania

Talk to you guys later

Warped Tour!!!

I don't know how to begin

Ok, so Warped Tour is a really big music festival throughout all US that brings a lot of bands together. This even is like any other band tour it's just it has no Headliner Band and its usually in really big open places with about 7 stages.

I decided to go...At first i wasn't that exited to go, i have grown apart from a lot of the bands that performed. I hardly ever listen to any hardcore music and i don't keep up with those genres of music as much as i used to. None the less, i'm glad i went...

The day started by picking everyone up and driving all the way to Carson (about 1 1/2 hours away). In our posse, it was Sixta,

Crystal, Teresa, and I. When we got to Carson we were starving so we stopped at a Jack in the Box and ate breakfast. After that we spent a good 20 minutes looking for a parking spot outside of the stadium because a parking in there was a whooping $20....So we just parked in a

neighborhood and walked to the event haha. There we were shocked by what seemed to be the crazy long lines to enter, we were not going to wait all that so with our amazing wits we just cut the line and got split into lines of males and females. I managed to get in first so instead of waiting for the girls i just went straight to the huge inflatable set list they had, it said what bands where playing at what times and at what stages. We met up and got a program, we then stayed where we were and watched Motion City Soundtrack. This band was really chill, i know a couple of their songs and the energy in stage got really crazy especially after they played a couple of their old songs. Shortly after we walked around collecting posters, stickers and such. We all got a free tattoo at the Active, and wondered around the other tents checking out where everything was at. While doing that we listened to The Dillinger Escape Plan, even though we didn't stay there for long these guys we pretty crazy i gotta admit. I've always enjoyed their music but their presence in stage was just whack...pretty crazy.

We continued to walk around and ended up stopping at the Closure in Moscow tent (one of my fav. bands of all time) and meeting Manny, (the rhythm guitarist and second vocalist, pic to the right) this guy was super kool. We talked with him got pictures and posters with autographs. We kicked it with him for a while and talked about random

things. Berrett the guitarist of the band also stopped by and we got his autograph and picture. Manny was really kool, he was actually enjoying the fact that we were there unlike other artist that say hi, take a picture and say "next", treating fans like a job or duty...We then headed off to see In Fear and Faith (pic under) a band that i'm a good fan of...This band is pretty hardcore, mixing screaming with high pitched clean vocals and dropping rhythms and leads in perfect places to make those moments in the song where ypu just go "Yeeeeeeaaaaa" haha. This band has talent, but it was not there yesterday. Well i take that back the whole band played a good show, everyone enjoyed it and for being the first time being in stage for a really long time and first time playing certain songs live...i give them props, it was just the clean vocals that killed it for me. He was singing to high compared to the voice i was used to, i understand everything is different live but i felt like this guy didn't remember how his own songs went. He was straining his voice and when it came back down it actually sounded better, but he just ignored that and kept singing high. Excluding that the show was really fun especially the pit, jumping around and singing to those catchy lyrics haha.

After that we watched Pierce The Veil and i must admit, I've seen them twice and both times they have not disappointed me...Yesterday they got the crowd crazy in seconds, (probably 'cause of their good looks lol) and played an amazing show. It was really entertaining especially when they gave a hip-hop track a hardcore feel and lifted up their guitars over their heads and each one had a word on it and it ultimately said "get fucking low" hahaha they brought the guitars back down and thats exactly what the crowd did, they got low haha. After that we watched You Me At Six then headed over and watched Enter Shikari....Those guys were crazy. They dropped them crazy Synth beats and climbed on practically everything, one of them even balanced a guitar on his mouth. These guys were pretty kool. Once they were done me and Teresa rushed in the crowd to get close to the Stage. We were in there for Alesana (pic bottom right) one of my childhood bands and the staircase that led me to liking a lot of these crazier bands. This show got a little rowdy, but it was fun. They played old and new songs, and satisfied everyone. In the midst of that mess Crystal showed up behind us and we continued to go crazy. When the last song came (Apology) it was planned that me and Teresa were going to crowd surf out of there but once the song started i lost her and i just asked so big guy next to me to push up and there i was...On top of everyone, my ass on their faces flipping and singing. I got caught by the security and i exited the stage with a smile on my face haha. We then reunited and went to go meet up with Manny again so me and Sixta could buy a shirt from them. Sixta bought Manny's favorite and me and Crystal bought the same one. We then hung out with him and talked some more. We learned a couple Australian words like "Grouse" meaning; Cool or Awesome. We talked about how unique heir band was and we made

a bet that if he didn't remember our names by August when we come back, he would give us all a free shirt haha. Then he gave me a book he was reading, "You Are a Spiritual Being Having Human Experience" so that i could read over the summer and bring back to him next time. I think that is flipping thight! The book is really complex and like he said "It's a Hard Read" but I'm determined to read it and bring it back to him. He then had to go warm up and we stole some poster while we listened to Emarosa. Once they were finished we got to the front of the stage and waited for them. They came into stage and Chris the main singer was wearing tights, a shinny pink hoodie and lipstick with crazy eyeshadow...yeea haha it was a little disturbing but really funny. These are they guys that dressed up as Christmas characters for one of their previous shows so i wasn't surprised. The show was REALLY good and the they played amazing. The crowed pissed me off. They didn't even bother to move. It seemed like the only people enjoying

the show were us four and some other fool in the front freaking out like me haha. The show was also short because the Audio Kit used in the stage broke so Emarosa had to use their own and them setting up took time off their set and it also shortened Closure's set as well giving the fact that they had to set up their own kit as well. None the less the show was amazing and i got to meet the rest of the band members afterwards except the drummer which i had seen around earlier). After that the day was practically over for us. We went and saw a couple more bands and ended it with The All American Rejects.

We left that place and headed home. We followed Crystal's

directions to a Fast Food Paradise only to get lost with both smart phones on the verge of Death!!! Haha but thanks to her we had hilarious moments, and we ended up practically eating the entire menu at Taco Bell haha. WE then left and finally got on track to our house. We talked, screamed and listened to music. We spit up all the things that we had obtained over the day (like the random condoms haha), and started dropping off people. Me being the last one dropped off, I said by to Sixta, entered my house and began my eternal slumber to finalize the day...

The day was another one of those days i will never forget, We watched

a lot more bands than what i mentioned its just i'm too lazy to talk about them all...some like NeverShoutNever, Streetlight Manifesto, Eyes Set to Kill, Suicide Silence, and a couple others...all the ones we missed i will see next time haha. OH and i skank'ed with Sixta (pic right) haha it was sick (Skainking is a toe of dancing to Ska music)

So here are other pics enjoy and i'm out

Closure in Moscow

Enter Shikari

Closure in Moscow (again)

Alesana

Warped Tour!!!

Ok so I JUST got back from warped tour and I'm exhausted so I'm going to blog tomorrow (well it's already today but whatever you get me) I promise a hefty blog and a bunch of pictures haha

Night

Burying Luck

So today was good, I recorded a song, tried fixing my other laptop and hung out with a friend. That's it...i have nothing more to say,

Throughout the whole day, i was happy and content but now i'm just not feeling it. I understand that everyone has these days but i seriously hate them. The whole day was fine, now I just want to go away, bury whatever luck i have and just sit in a corner and watch people go by. I just want to see what would happen. I'm not depressed or being emotional i'm just being curious. I have come to a point where i ignore peoples problems, and it's not that big of a deal because i used to always help out but i have just grown apart from that sadly. I don't expect anyone to help me and even if they did i don't need it. I help people when they ask for the help but when someone doesn't ask it's for a reason and it's because they need to be alone. I used to not understand this a while ago but i am now a master of. I personally think, solving things alone is the way to go. I don't want to give an emotional side of my thoughts or anything, just think of this as me simple expressing myself. Not sad nor happy, just there.

I don't really understand what might of have triggered these thoughts. Maybe i haven' been active enough today or maybe it was that one surprising text that left me wondering between truth or lies. Maybe i'm just sick of being tired or maybe i'm tired of being sick. Little things never bother me but today the simplest thing left me wondering and asking for answers i could not get.

I don't know

All i know is that I'm out

Night

Sweet Victory for Those That Cry

Oh YES! Again i can feel the smooth texture of an actual keybord and i can see from a screen that is actually bigger than my palm! haha I'm using the laptop again and it feels marvelous. I already broke my own laptop and its a matter of days until this one is filled up with unopened torrents and a but load of .exe files that take up all the memory on it :))) I seriously don't deserve to be using this laptop, i currently have it on top of my amp as i sit on the floor, each time i remove my hands from it the computer's status becomes a question of, "how long do you think it will be able to balance it self before it falls and breaks"...a question im faced with everyday with practically all my property...haha i like chances

So other than that today was fun, I got to see Toy Story 3

which is everyones favorite topic no a days, andi can see why. That movie wasn't only funny, it was entertaining and memorable. It brought back so many memories of my childhood days. At times i thought i was going to tear up but i kept them i and smiled haha. This movie is simply amazing, i can't really describe my feeling for it so i wont...sorry :) after that i came home to drown myself in music and to update my phone...THE HORROR!!!!

Ok, so...yes i have an iphone big woot, i honestly don't like pulling out in public because i feel like i'm bragging or trying to show off, which i'm not, i'm trying to read my text message. To be honest, i don't think kid my age should have things like this it turns them into materialist and its truly a big responsibility. I'm not excluding myself because I've been spoiled by my parents since birth even at times when we were completely broke. This made me realize that money, cars, phones and fancy stuff is not what my life is all about. Its all about the memories and experiences, the fun times and the friends along the way...

The whole updating my phone took about 3 hours because well my PC is crap and itunes is a device from hell...After that i started writing new songs but i was too lazy to record the two i made...Shorty after i invited my friend Carlos over and we chilled and talked about hilarious things. I showed him my song that i had recorded the other day and so impressed he didn't believe it was me and i had to go and prove it to him. This made me feel super accomplished, i felt like i did something amazing and that how he was reacting. He wanted to add lyrics and use his drum machine to add beats and such, which i'm pretty exited for. After that, i started learning some dongs on guitar..."Going Home" by Shiro Sagisu and "Every Place is a House" by Maps and Atlases. Every place is a house is a crazy song, the first time i heard it i though it was impossible for anyone to play something like that from the first time learning it, but after i tried it today i was impressed at myself...i was like "...wow i'm actually pretty good" haha, the song can scare at first but after persistent practice for an hour straight the intro becomes pretty simple haha and i'm pretty much half way through the song right now...haha congrats Gerardo :)

I had a cool topic to talk about today but i can't remember right now...Umm well on another random note...I continue to feel disloyal to myself to myself by not pursuing art, well at least not practicing, because i wish to pursue art as a career. I saw a friend's portfolio from last years art class and that person had increased in skill by SO MUCH, i felt somewhat envious that i'm not in the same position. I continue to search for my own style but i continue to find things that i enjoy but images that people find repulsing and scary. I don't care what people think but it becomes a problem when my art instructor denies my sketch and says that i shouldn't use the canvas and stick to painting in paper. I felt insulted and my fist was tightening for that punch to the face he deserved for waisting everyone's time in that art class. This previous year was a complete failure thanks to him. We only used finger paint as a medium and never advanced from that even though we were his most advanced class, with about 17 students in it. His greedy self and inexperience led to a unpleasant year and an endeavor to become better at something he was never good at...

With that said i'm off, I gotta buy Warped Tour tickets :)))))) i'm exited, Friday is going to be another memorable day!

oh the picture is in honor of the movie, its a picture of the talking Mr.Potato Head in Disney and the title is a completely random title I though of...its going into my ridiculously large list of possible song names

soooo...

Night

This Blog Needs Guns

I hate doing this through my phone but it would be impossible to do from my desktop, it's the mother of all snails when it's speed is challenged, so sorry for misspelled words, weird picture arrangements and just complete retardness (well you read all these things in all my blog but it's an excuse haha)

Hoy fue interesante, (today was interesting) the morning was the same as always breakfast served with a side of boredom, up until noon I was pretty much doing completely nothing. At around that time I learned a new song on guitar (Absentine Party At The Fly Honey Warehouse by Minus The Bear) and made a new one, too bad I could not record it, I have no access to the laptop.

A little after I went to Super Target and got myself a shirt, a button up and a hat, kinda like those Havana style ones, idk it looked pretty nice. I went home, showered again, ate and I went to this Youth Group that I'm part of, I had a fun time there, I got to see friends and got to spent time with them...
There are a couple things bothering me though, I feel content and happy at the moment but for some reason I find myself searching for something wrong. Today I saw something wrong on someone but that's not what I'm looking for because that's something I see every other week from the same person and it's completely retarded and unnecessary, oh not to mention very repetitive. It's that type of thing that concerns you the first time but once it's done twice a month and done to somewhat obtain attention of certain people
It kind of grows on you, it bothers and it shows you how immature some people can be. To be honest, it's not my problem and I'm obviously not the friend to solve it, well at least not the friend that person is looking for.

Ok sooo back to what ever I was saying, umm I search for something wrong when there is nothing wrong to be found. Maybe because that was today's mood, just somewhat slow and relaxed. I'm not completely sure, and I'm also not completely sure if you guys are going to get what I mean but hopefully you do...

As I was heading home I saw these two girls, more like teenagers, that seemed like they were taking a jog but were now resting and on their way back. One of them had one of those red blinking lights on her butt I guess so cars wouldn't hit her but I thought it was pretty hilarious. Well after seeing that I thought to myself, and wondered what they were thinking of or what they were discussing. Maybe they were just talking about their walk or maybe one of them had a very deep issue on her mind and she was sharing it with her friend who was there for her. Maybe they were just talking about school, or maybe they were talking about how one of them once fell in love and felt like the stars belonged to her at the time but now she realizes that she's still on earth, now that he's gone.Maybe a simple conversation about the type of shoes she's wearing or maybe a deep conversation on how one of them misses a close relative who just passed away, who knows what they were talking about. I'll never know.

"…I’m not happy here anymore.

We should’ve stayed at home tonight.
All the bright lights and company
are not what I need."

These are lyrics from the song "26 is Dancier Than 4" by This Town Needs Guns, They are for someone in specific, So they can relate to them, but they are for everyone else too. When i heard these words i realized i could easily relate to them so hopefully its the same for you readers. Hopefully that person gets over whatever is a bother and returns to normal, because its pretty dumB. Oh and sorry Ive been talking about this band so much it's just im trying my hardest to get into them and i promise you by the end of this week ill probably have someone new to brag about...

The pics were taken from an App i have on my phone that i took at Santa Monica last Sunday...enjoi

Sorry that my post have been utterly long and pointless it's just i always have something interesting in mind but it always comes out different.

Night and Thank You

Longest Day of the Year

Yet again I present to you a late blog which I should have posted yesterday night but I couldn't find the laptop that was in my room so I gave up and went to sleep, and that's where I am now, laying in bed doing this from my phone because I don't know where the laptop is....

Ok so today (yesterday) was a day I doubt I'll ever forget, seriously. Like I said in the previous blog I went to Disneyland with 3 of my friends just us, no one else. We spent


the whole day seperate, Gaby and her boyfriend Luis split and I spent the day with Vero. The day started pretty simple riding a couple rides here and there and laughing at anything and everything. Haha we had some really funny moments. At one tine we were in line and a guy with his kid and I'm guessing his new girlfriend was talking about his love life with this girl that could seriously give a crap. It was hilarious especially when he started saying how he became a "studmuffin" once he hit highschool and how he made the worst mistake of his life by breaking up with some girl. And he said all this in front of a girl that he hoped to get with haha. It was hilarious. After that we ate and watched a kid suck on the chain of a line (yummy).

The day went on and we got in a lot more rides. I was kinda screwed after riding splash mountain. Especially after some girl told me and vero that the person in the front seat doesn't get wet, the person in the secound one gets soaked. So me being the great friend I am let Vero in the secound seat and I took the front seat. After that let's say we were both pretty much soaked for the remainding of the day.


Later on when the day was coming to an end we watched the show Fantasmic while eating cotton candy and fruit gummies. Well I ate gummies, Vero didn't really want to share her cotton candy haha. So after that we watched the show and it was pretty amazing, I don't know what made it that way, it just was. After that we ran to the fireworks in front of the castle and got a good spot by sneaking in some weird spot and blocking everyone's view haha. And again it happened, I was memzmorized by the fireworks, I don't know...I was just completely lost in them, something I won't ever forget.

After that we tried getting in line for Peter Pan but it didn't really work, so we sat down and started talking but that turned into bikering and the guy next to me couldent stop laughing at us, and had to come into the conversation and state his opinion on our argument that it's "The Olive Garden" not "Olive Garden" haha the "the" makes it fancier and just an overall better place. He obiously agreed with me because it's the truth(Vero dosen't know what she's talking about) haha and we continued to argue and laugh and the guy next to us coulden't even breathe. I felt pretty awesome, I made a new friend and I made him laugh haha. After that we stood up and after I said by to him I came across a friend of mine and said hi and everything. Then we just rode two more simple rides to end the day we headed home
on a sleepy car ride.

This is one of those days, that no matter what I won't forget, and I'm glad I spent the Longest Day of The Year with such and amazing person.

California Hugs

Haha what a day...

At first i thought today was going to drag on and be boring but it was the complete opposite. Our family today decided to go somewhere....they didn't know where to go, so we just went to go eat at my dad's favorite Mexican restaurant El Torrito. The time there was fun, i stuffed some "flautas" and got a free ice cream :)
After that we just drove ad drove and drove...I was tired but in the back seat of the car there was 3 other people sitting with me which made it impossible to fall asleep. My legs were folded and crammed up. I didn't complain i just sat and twisted my body in different ways to look for a comfortable position to sleep in. Time passed by and we showed up at Venice Beach! haha i love this place, full of true Californians and lots of art, music and complete randomness. We walked down the path by the shore where all the stores are, we checked out a couple things, took pictures, and laughed at all the weird things that we saw. It was a little awkward being there with my family especially when they were asking me how the whole "medical marijuana" business worked. I don't know it just didn't feel right haha. While we were walking down we saw a really kool wall and i just HAD to take a picture of it. Its some really kool art work and i love all the characters, it gives the street a personality.

After Venice Beach we headed over to Santa Monica Pier where we took some amazing pictures of the sunset and of the water. We walked a little and went on the actual Pier. Here i was shocked to see a guy holding up a sign that said free hugs. It's not that i have never seen this before, it's just i actually had a chance at doing it. None the less I walked off without my hug. I felt like i kinda betrayed myself but it was ok. We walked a little further and we took some kool pictures and looked at other kool stuff. After we filled our souls with entertaining memories we decided to head back. On our way back i saw the same sign, tempting me to do something about it...but this time, it was a girl holding it. To be honest i feel way more comfortable hugging a woman than a man. So i went for it...I got my hug, i got to sign her poster and i walked off with a smile on my face, all the way to the car, knowing i did something different and meaningful.

The car ride back was just as painful as the ride there. To be honest my back hurts a lot and i got scared when my leg fell asleep and i couldn't lift it up...haha idk it was crazy

Other than having an awesome day today, i found out I'm going to have an even awesome-er day tomorrow haha I'm going to Disneyland again but this time with 3 very special people haha I'm really exited.
That's about it for today, im going to bed because i have to wake up early tomorrow soooo

Night

Ever Dance Of The Winter

Sorry for posting yesterdays post today morning, its just i was with my friends all night yesterday and my day hadn't ended yet so i felt as if i couldn't blog about the day until i finished my day...ill explain

Today was pretty awesome, Recapping on the previous blog, I attempted to Lucid Dream but i wasn't successful. I understand its not a one shot thing so i followed the advice Maggie May (i believe that's your name, sorry if its not haha) gave me in a comment on my previous post. She told me that interrupting her sleep worked for her and i thought i wasn't going to be interrupted because i didn't set up any alarms but i actually woke up about for times and i was able to remember 4 dreams :)))) I know it's not lucid dreaming but it a big step for me because i have never been able to do that. I thought writing them down after dreaming them was going to be a hassle but it was pretty simple, and every time i read what i wrote i remember the dream vividly. I'm really exited for this, I wasn't able to remember any dreams this time (last nights (its morning right now)) because i wasn't at my own house so i couldn't really do it...ill Explain...

So today (yesterday), was really fun. I woke up late and with all these notes explaining my dreams. I also woke up to see what i had drawn the past night out of pure boredom which I'm somewhat proud of...a lot cleaner than my usual drawings. The afternoon was spent slow and lazy, I made some pancakes for me and my sister and from there i went upstairs to record the song i made a couple days ago again, I took a nap, Listened to This Town Needs Guns, Foals, and Look Mexico. The day started to go and i finally found something to do. At around 8 i got picked up by my friend Crystal and her mom to go to their house. After stopping at the store to buy burger patties and such we got bribed by some dude to go buy yogurt flavored DOTS...i truly hate dots but this guy gave us a dollar so we could buy them. They weren't that bad i guess...At the house we ate burgers and hot dogs and kicked back for a while up until so other friends came and we played video games and talked and joked around.

At about 2:30 for some odd reason we decided to leave the house and go to Wall-Mart and go buy foam swords so we can duel each other O_o"....To be honest i don't even know why we did this, it was completely random. So we go in the car all 5 of us and headed to the store while we busted some Red Hot Chili Peppers had sang to it. When we got there we realized that they had no toy foam swords?! Only 15 dollar ones! it was ridiculous, the expensive ones were awesome and we had a little duel at one of the aisles until we were abruptly interrupted by a worker. It as funny to see 5 rather grown up teens messing around like this (i say "rather grown up" because were still all kids haha). After not finding what we wanted we tried getting a board game but we couldn't decide soo we left and got breakfast at Jack in the Box haha that was something everyone decided on, even though Crystal's sister was falling asleep. We all got something (except her) and headed back home. When we got to the room everyone when to separate places to do different things and i was left alone with Ariana (crystal's sis, I've said this like 10 times already) so i decided to take a bite out of everyone's meal including mine and wrap them back up...It was hilarious how we all tried to figure out who it was, we were blaming each other but no one found out it was me :) After that we played Monopoly in teams (Me and Crystal, V.S. Joel and Danny) Me and Crystal are masters at this game...At first i though we were losing but when Danny stepped in all the wrong places it was just a matter of time and they couldn't pay what they owed us. Danny couldn't even pay, taxes or the rent of a street that was worth $22, he only had 7 dollars.

After we destroyed them we headed to sleep, and realized the sun was out and it was 6 in the morning....yeeea i haven't slept haha

The picture is just a kool picture i took of my printer's ink cartridge. I'm not sure why it attracted me it just did.

So I'm off, Happy Fathers Day and thanks Maggie May for the advice :)

"Crazy, Crazy days are gone, welcome home" - Double Vision Quest by Minus The Bear

talk to you guys later