Bridges I Can Not Pass

Yea, im late...whatevers

I really want to continue with the whole log thing but i have seriously been too lazy. I've spent days doing nothing. I see this as a chore or a duty but thats not the truth. When i started i feared getting to this point. When i see other's blogs and similar things i see that it just needs getting used to. If i can constantly do it i will become used to it and it will be something required for me to sleep, something that if i don't do i will feel betrayed by my self. Yes, i have explained myself before, i am a procrastinator but everyday life gets a little rougher and i can't be leaving things in a bag stashed aways because when i least expect it that bag is going to be in front of me and its going to be huge. So this is a sort of discipline or learning block to improve myself. I have never been the one to try to help myself do crap. I usually continue not doing anything or not giving a damn about life and i succeed. I see so many things everyday and realize and can't leave everything up to luck and chance. I usually let people decide and i go along because to e honest nothing bothers me. People have stepped on me before and i have not cared what so ever, if thats what they need to do they can go ahead and do it even if it means leaving me on the side. I also understand that this is not a way of living and i'm not the type that lets things slide by, i see them and administer them but when i see that they mean no harm to me i just leave them be and i continue to watch them as they affect others. It's somewhat selfish, to just sit back and watch but then again i'm peoples doormat for what ever they attempt to do.

I got a little out of line but what i'm trying to say is that i need to continue this and be punctual about it. If i do this i can learn to be the person i'm supposed to be haha..get me? Even if no one cares what the hell i did that day or even if no one reads these im still going to do them to better myself. The few people that read these is the reason i got to realize that i need to keep doing this. Not to be loyal but to become who i need to be haha...this might make no sense but whatever, its whats on my mind and its pretty pointless

The picture i took yesterday and i found it funny because i could not distinguish if it was a male or female. The artist clearly added female attributes but made his face with a male in mind. His string jaw and chin line, broad forehead and rough neck...i'm still not sure

so ill post something later on for todays adventure

see ya