Sweet Victory for Those That Cry

Oh YES! Again i can feel the smooth texture of an actual keybord and i can see from a screen that is actually bigger than my palm! haha I'm using the laptop again and it feels marvelous. I already broke my own laptop and its a matter of days until this one is filled up with unopened torrents and a but load of .exe files that take up all the memory on it :))) I seriously don't deserve to be using this laptop, i currently have it on top of my amp as i sit on the floor, each time i remove my hands from it the computer's status becomes a question of, "how long do you think it will be able to balance it self before it falls and breaks"...a question im faced with everyday with practically all my property...haha i like chances

So other than that today was fun, I got to see Toy Story 3

which is everyones favorite topic no a days, andi can see why. That movie wasn't only funny, it was entertaining and memorable. It brought back so many memories of my childhood days. At times i thought i was going to tear up but i kept them i and smiled haha. This movie is simply amazing, i can't really describe my feeling for it so i wont...sorry :) after that i came home to drown myself in music and to update my phone...THE HORROR!!!!

Ok, so...yes i have an iphone big woot, i honestly don't like pulling out in public because i feel like i'm bragging or trying to show off, which i'm not, i'm trying to read my text message. To be honest, i don't think kid my age should have things like this it turns them into materialist and its truly a big responsibility. I'm not excluding myself because I've been spoiled by my parents since birth even at times when we were completely broke. This made me realize that money, cars, phones and fancy stuff is not what my life is all about. Its all about the memories and experiences, the fun times and the friends along the way...

The whole updating my phone took about 3 hours because well my PC is crap and itunes is a device from hell...After that i started writing new songs but i was too lazy to record the two i made...Shorty after i invited my friend Carlos over and we chilled and talked about hilarious things. I showed him my song that i had recorded the other day and so impressed he didn't believe it was me and i had to go and prove it to him. This made me feel super accomplished, i felt like i did something amazing and that how he was reacting. He wanted to add lyrics and use his drum machine to add beats and such, which i'm pretty exited for. After that, i started learning some dongs on guitar..."Going Home" by Shiro Sagisu and "Every Place is a House" by Maps and Atlases. Every place is a house is a crazy song, the first time i heard it i though it was impossible for anyone to play something like that from the first time learning it, but after i tried it today i was impressed at myself...i was like "...wow i'm actually pretty good" haha, the song can scare at first but after persistent practice for an hour straight the intro becomes pretty simple haha and i'm pretty much half way through the song right now...haha congrats Gerardo :)

I had a cool topic to talk about today but i can't remember right now...Umm well on another random note...I continue to feel disloyal to myself to myself by not pursuing art, well at least not practicing, because i wish to pursue art as a career. I saw a friend's portfolio from last years art class and that person had increased in skill by SO MUCH, i felt somewhat envious that i'm not in the same position. I continue to search for my own style but i continue to find things that i enjoy but images that people find repulsing and scary. I don't care what people think but it becomes a problem when my art instructor denies my sketch and says that i shouldn't use the canvas and stick to painting in paper. I felt insulted and my fist was tightening for that punch to the face he deserved for waisting everyone's time in that art class. This previous year was a complete failure thanks to him. We only used finger paint as a medium and never advanced from that even though we were his most advanced class, with about 17 students in it. His greedy self and inexperience led to a unpleasant year and an endeavor to become better at something he was never good at...

With that said i'm off, I gotta buy Warped Tour tickets :)))))) i'm exited, Friday is going to be another memorable day!

oh the picture is in honor of the movie, its a picture of the talking Mr.Potato Head in Disney and the title is a completely random title I though of...its going into my ridiculously large list of possible song names

soooo...

Night

I'll Do It...Tomorrow

haha i actually have things to talk about today :) i just got home and everyone is asleep because we have a big day ahead of us tomorrow but im up for some blogging...sitting here in front of the screen, i-pod in ear and willing.

So today i got a chance to hang out with one of my main nighas Andres! We usually just kick it and have lots of fun in weird ways and today wasn't any different. When i got to his house we jammed then we got picked up to go to his Fiance's house (Ana) which i had only met her once and it was a simple hello...We got picked up by his friend Albert which is super kool and we headed to Romoland where she lives.

Once there i gotta admit i was a little iffy about being there cause this was technically my first time meeting her and i was going to meet her family aswell?! Oh and to top it off Albert and Andres were warning me of her younger brother that was crazy...yeeeea. Once inside i felt a little awkward but i quickly felt at home well at least at Andrews house...I felt chill and i was easily able to talk to her mom which is a really kool lady, and very funny haha. Inside we talked about a couple things but they mostly talked about their friends which i don't know but i just listened and payed close attention. It was all pretty funny and interesting, their opinions, thoughts and feeling toward those they love haha. Andrew had a moment where he explained to Ana's mom how he loved her for who she was and not for the outside features. This was a rather hilarious conversation but it made me think a lot.

To be honest (and sorry) when i first heard that he was getting married and he told me i was a little Iffy about the whole situation. I though of how young they both are and how they are both so open for opportunities. But after thinking through i accepted it and i was really happy. I knew Andres isn't doing this just to get married, he is doing it because they truly love each other and that's something rare and wonderful.

After the visit we headed home and we talked about working and education. At that time i started thinking of myself and how I'm determined to go somewhere (collage wise) and study but there are so many variables that could change that. I love art in all aspects; Music, Art, Design, Writing, etc. I love it all, and even though i focus on art and music i still feel like I'm not doing what i should to be preparing for a life as an artist. I'm a procrastinator, and i am a minimalist in both ways (tnx for the word andrew) I always in art try to keep everything simple and minimal to make it unique but I'm also a minimalist in the way that i do the minimum requirement for everything...Nothing pushes me, nothing truly excites me, I always think negative but keep a positive attitude, "I'm A Wishful Thinker, With The Worst Intentions" and "I'm "So Good At Setting Bad Examples" (both lines from songs of Taking Back Sunday)...If you have met me in real life you would understand a lot more, I'm always relaxed, No Worries, and always laid back...nothing bothers me....so that's why the future of my education is in risk hahaha, but it's nothing to worry about.

Through out the day today i heard two Lines of Two different Songs that gave me the CHILLS, those that start at your toes and finish at your ears...yeeea crazzyyyy

"You can have my keys, my guitars if u just let me have the key to your heart" - The voice in the song completed the awesomeness of the verse

"I'm a bill you pay, I'm a contract you can't break, And it's like I'm under water, or on an endless escalator, I just go up and up, but I don't ever reach the top" - Damn what a line haha that one was crazy

The first picture is my nigga andrew and his fiance, and the second one is a flower a very special friend made for me out of play-dough i believe haha. I really like the picture and the flower haha

So I'm Off to sleep i need some,

Night

All I Truely Need

Today was pretty kool, I got to hang out with some friends at first and i got a delicious meal at jack in the box :) We were supposed to go to the movies with more friends but we ended up not joining them so we just decided to head to our friend Gaby's house after we stocked up on candy and rented the movie "Nine" (the musical, not Tim Burton) we didn't get far into the movie when me and crystal were picked up, after stopping on Del Taco i arrived home...here i enjoyed a listening session of The Scene Aesthetic and Say Anything...i hadn't heard both in a while

Now I'm here

I realized today that no matter what i do or what i feel as long as I'm with my friends I feel like I fulfilled my goal, No mater what, i feel happy and content as long as I'm with them. And yes i understand that there are things i should do or should have done but to be honest i just wanted to kick back today, especially with people i enjoy being with

Like i said i think i should have done curtain things but just having you there filled me up with all that i needed (yea you)

The picture was taken with my phone during art while we were cleaning the paint cans. The water hitting the cap of it made a really cool effect and it amazed me even though Ive seen it before, idk something about this time was special O_o' maybe I'm just crazy...

Alright I'm out, I'm going to play some guitar and finish the zombie

i gotta stop listening to Look Mexico, they are too good

Night

A Seal and a Car Wash

Well today was rather interesting, instead of going to a Say Anything concert I ended up in helping out at a car wash O_o"

It wasn't that bad, a little tiering but it was overall fun, it was 5 hours long but it was somewhat worth it I guess...

The picture came from washing one of the cars, we found that seal in the floor of the car and we put it on the armrest and I took a picture of it without anyone noticing haha (ninja)
I actually have a small collection of animal toy pictures I've come across, I'll be posting them later on

For now I'm just hanging out at crystals house, sleeping over for the secound night in a row...pretty nice and chill, waiting for a text

Night

Location:Crystals house