Lately these nights have been filled with these feelings that run through my body when the lights go out...
It's one of the questions too, "do you sometimes feel the urge to separate your self from others and be left to your inner thoughts" haha umm where's the answer that says "very fucking frequently." it's ironic to feel this way and share my feelings in the blog, but the truth is I doubt many read this, so it's a way for me to kind of connect with those who feel insulted when I exclude myself.
Another question was something like, "Do you range from being happy, exited and optimistic to sad, tearful, and pessimistic" That's another obvious answer, but I guess everyone feels this way and goes through this. The question I asked myself is that if they go through it this frequently.
I don't let this bother me but like any other nuisance, it itches your spine at times. This would be one of these times I guess.
I have never been one to give direct answers. I always add a "I guess" a "well we could" or "whatever"...sometimes "if" haha. That's because It's not that I'm afraid of the outcome, it's more like I'm curious to see both. Yea
I admit I sometimes do hesitate but I've notices I've been trying to change that a lot. I still hesitate but I end with an answer, not an opinion.
I feel as if lately I've changed a lot, yea I've separated myself from many just because I don't want to be another nuisance, and I've grown closer to others, well...another to be precise.
Not by a lot but enough for me.
Sorry, you might think I'm freaking crazy by now but i don't know, this is how I feel I guess. I know, I'm lame, you tell me constantly haha but i don't know...this is just a side of me. You mean a bunch to me my friend. You don't even know.
Oh and I'm fine, I just listen to music too late. It always gets to me...
You know those songs that the lyrics don't really make sense, but for some reason they relate to you and make you feel like your part of it? Haha I love those
I guess, this is like one of those
Nothing makes sense but It seems like it all applies to me and makes sense to me, makes me feel like I'm part of it.
For now, I'm out
Goodnight
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